Girls are complicated. Why?

Hells yea, I'm being so hardworking in updating my blog recently.

So we were shopping in a mall and one of my girl friend actually scream out: Noooo, girls are not complicated at all ! Lets just choose a dress and buy it !

2 of us looking at her and laugh out loud and said: Hahahaha she's crazy. Girls are so complicated because they have no idea what they want. Then we start discussing about it.

See, we don't even know what we gonna get in this store. What we like, what colour of dress we need, what style. And we gonna spend like 1-2 hours over there choose over and over again. Use their fitting room like it's our house. YES, finally we get what we want. Go to the cashier, pay and go.

Then, we start regret and say: I think I should choose the other one, not really like this. etc etc.

1) We don't know what we want and expect you to know. 

See, told you. Girls are so complicated.

If a girl actually drag a guy to go shopping, the guy is dead. When the girl comes out from fitting room with a dress and ask, HOW DO I LOOK?
Your answer: wow, you look great in every dress.
Girls' thought: LIAR.
If your answer: I don't think you look good in this dress.
Girls' thought: You don't know what is fashion.
You don't have an option for your answer. Right?

Since you're the one who gonna pay for the dress, they give you to choose which dress to buy because we still can't make up our mind which dress to get.

2) Jealousy 

Sometime do you ever feel your gf acting really weird and start scolding you without a reason? The way they talk like there's something but when you ask what, they never tell. Yes, girls get jealous easily ! And they will never admit they jealous. Remember the picture we used to see on facebook (can't find it now). The picture is showing the guy asking his gf:
"Baby are you jealous?"
"NO!"
"Baby are you jealous?"
"No!"
"Baby are you jealous?"
"NOOO!"
"Baby can I get a kiss?"
"Go get a kiss from the girl you just liked her picture!"
"..."

See, the reason they saying no is because they don't want to admit that they are actually "small gas". And when you ask can I get a kiss, volcano boom. She thinks you don't have qualification to get a kiss from her ! YOU, stop pretending nothing has happened. I'm jealous now!

Like one of my friend. He has a gf, and still he will hang out with me sometime one on one because he thinks that I HAVE NO FEMININE IN MYSELF. I'm not really a girly type if you get to know me well. I act like a man. No choice, grow out with 5 brothers in a family. Sooo, the main point is, my friend who has a gf and still hang out with me.
I told him: "Oi, you know you are not allowed to hang out with me one on one when you have a gf? She's gonna jealous to dead! Trust me."
He answered: "Nahhh, don't worry. She won't jealous to a guy."
I'm speechless.
Then he added up:" The reason I love her so much because she's not like other girls. She is mature thinking. She understand why. "
Me:" Soo, ok if you say so. I don't know your gf well, so no idea. "

Few weeks later, he talked to me and said: FUCK la, she really jealous because I hang out with you last time.
Me: GOOD.

Told you, girls jealous no matter where, when, why, who, what and don't care how old are you! Even a mum can jealous with her own daughter when her husband loves his daughter so much!

3) Yes means no, No means yes

Heard of this right? Why we do this? I don't know. Sometime girls don't really want to tell you what on their mind. That's why they use the opposite language. And yes, as a bf. They actually expect you to know that.

Him: Hey, you like this dress? I'll buy for you.
Her: Noo, it's okay. (In her mind, oh fuck, drag me to the shop and buy it for me!)
Him: Oh (Walk off)
Her: (What a idiot useless brainless animal!)

True, I heard guys said: You should tell me because I don't know what you're thinking! But girl will never tell you, they seriously expect you to know her well. I guess you need luck to try guess.

4) Frenemies

Acting so good with the other girl, hug each other but bitching about them behind. Woooots, that's what I get to see everyday in my life. I saw those girls like such a good friend, always hang out, snap lots of pictures and post on facebook and say Best Friend Forever. Then I get to know that both of them bitching and talking bad about each other behind. Seriously, why the fuck pretending you girls are such a good friend when you hate each other?

Another case: E saw B in an event, rush to B and hug her and say: Awww long time no see, you getting prettier and prettier now! Done their conversation, E turned to me and said: ISH, I very hate her actually. Always act cute there. Yer!

I'm so speechless, why you go and hug her then? Should pretending like you didn't see her.

So complicated.

5) No dress to wear for the party!

Check her wardrobe, open and those dresses will fall down and fall on you! See, our wardrobe is actually full with clothes but we always claim that we got not enough dress. That's why you see lots of girls keep shopping and buy more and more dresses.

I'll tell you secretly, some of the dresses/clothes that we bought, we only wear it once or we never wear it. We put it in the wardrobe and forget that we actually bought it and no special occasion for that clothes. Or maybe we changed our mind after bought it because the second time we saw that clothes, we feel dislike.

And also, we don't want our friends said that: Yerrr, look at her, she wear the same dress again! Bet she has no other clothes :DD!
Is a shame hahaha that's why we only wear it once and keep it for museum.

I don't know why ! But we just did it.

6)  Carry a big bag 

We carry a big bag, and inside we have nothing important. We can actually stuck all stuff in our pocket but the problem is dress doesn't has a pocket for us. That's why we carry a big bag, throw a little not important stuff in there and acting like so fashion.

When we start shopping, we actually forget we have a big bag. And lost our bag. Hahahaha.

I don't know why.

7) Tricky Question 

Bet your gf loves to ask you tricky question like If me and your mother fall into the sea, who will you save first? Lame question, just throw her with a lame answer.

"So, who is hotter? Your ex or the one you were staring at 2 minutes ago" This is a trick question. She doesn't care about your ex, she doesn't care about the other woman, she is mad at you for staring but she won't tell you that. (I copied this from an article, true enough!)

Told you, girls are just complicated. Why can't we just slap you on face and say stop staring!

8) Different clothes all the time

Yep, all the time. Morning different, evening different, night different. Like you're working in office and night you have a party. You won't see them in a small clothes, they will absolutely change.

Morning picnic, different casual shirt, evening watch movie, different dress, night dinner, different clothes again.

I don't know why. But we just want a comfortable dress for different occasion.

9) Going to wash room in a group

If you actually dine in with a group of friends, when a girl say: Excuse me, I'm going to toilet, anyone? The other girls gonna say: Yes yes me too!! Then they go to the toilet together!

But if guy actually did that, girls gonna gossip behind them and wondering are they gay.

Why? I don't know. Safety maybe. Who knows there's a wolf hiding in the toilet?

10) Gossip  

Yes, we love gossip. We spend most of our time just gossip. Whatever topic it is, we just gossip. Talk about those girls in our school. The guy we like and bitching about everything.

I know guys do gossip. But it will never be as serious as how those girls did.

Why? Favourite topic in our life.

11) Asking you: Am I fat?

Girls are always too afraid to gain weight. Eat too much, no exercise etc etc. Seriously, sometime woman turns fat easily after give birth and it's not easy to get back to the original shape.

Yea, asking guy about this is so annoying. Sometime guys just don't understand why when they see her still look the same. But trust me, the way we're asking this because we feel our arms getting big, our weight increase 1kg, tummy not flat enough, face getting round, etc etc. Guys wouldn't know all these shits but yet we keep asking.

Girls are so complicated. And I don't know why we're so confusing.

In conclusion, girls are so complex, difficult to fathom and impossible to predict!

Is virgin a shame?

HELL NO!

What? Being a virgin is a thing to proud of. At least you're not those kind of sluts who get laid everywhere. I'm sorry, this kinda a sensitive topic. Don't leave those hateful comments on me. Please.

So yep, now back to the topic.
People said is a shame of still being a virgin is because their first time was a nightmare. And they gave it to the wrong person maybe? That's why they jealous with those virgin. I don't know.

For guys, yes. They said it's a shame. But for girls, no. This kind of girl is expensive. But you see, the world changed. Even they said they don't care anymore. How pathetic :(

Lot of guys laugh at me, booo at me because of this. They said: Gosh, dafuq? Are you serious? You so conservative. Don't lie to me please.  If you don't do it now, you gonna wait til you die? When you old?
Yes, laugh please, just laugh. Bet those guys love to get a slut wife maybe?

Seriously I don't know. Everyone has their own perceptions. Think outside the box. See it in every different angels. Let's see.

1) A conservative girl's thinking: 
Nah, if you wanna have sex, wait til we get married okay babe? If you love me, you wouldn't mind to wait though. This is the only priceless thing I can keep for my future husband. My first time is so important, if I gave to the wrong person, I will regret for the rest of my life. And also I need to set a date for my first time too lol. It's so important! Well, if I gave to the guy I love so much but end up breaking up, it will be a wrong investment. Sooo, I'll keep it till I can see future with the man I'm with now!
This is how a conservative girl thoughts.

2) Having a stable relationship girl's thinking:
I love my bf. We've been in a relationship for few years. I gave him my first time. He said we will love me forever and take good care of me. So now, we have sex few times per month. And I'm glad he's the one.
*If accident happens, is either you abort the child or you get married*
I don't know. Like one of my friend said: Well, since we're in relationship, this should be include in our daily life. And I tell you what, you got no idea how many benefits we will get by having sex. Then she started with all her benefits like: you can sleep well after that, reduce stress, stay youthful, increase confident?, more prettier, healthier, good for blood circulation, burn fats.. etc etc. Well, the only disadvantage will be: PREGNANT. That's the nightmare start for you.

3) Party Girl
This is guys' favorite girls. As you can see, party girl. They have sex with everyone. I bet their first time was sucks and a nightmare. That's why they're doing this to satisfy themselves. I don't know. And they think that: Life is short, we must have fun! No point being so out-dated like those nerd girls! Then, they end up everyday waking up with a different guys sleeping beside who she has no idea who the hell is that! Hey, fun?
If you're free to read this blog, type genital herpes, chancroid on google images and see what the hell is that. I dare you. If you get this disease, congratulation. No more sex for you! HIV is common disease so you basically know it.

4) Got raped and.. 
Gosh I feel pathetic for this kind of girls. Accident means they get raped, forced or whatever. So their first time is such a nightmare. They got no choice. They have to carry this for the rest of their life. But if they found a guy who really love them and don't care about that. Problem solved. But they might afraid of sex next time. Afraid of guys touching them, or whatever it is. Guy, you need time to cure her if you really love her.

5) Fashion, trend girls
So they think if you never have sex before, you're so freaking out-dated. What the hell wrong with you? All of us already tried it. Why the hell you still keeping it? Yep, they think it's proud to show off that they lost their virginity. True, some girls think it's proud. It's a prove that they already grown up. Apply on all those little girls out there who are still under-age.

6) Use sex to keep their men
So, he's asking for break up because I didn't want to have sex with him. He said I don't love him. What should I do what should I do? Hells yea, so she gave him her first time. And after the first time, he keeps asking for more and more. Girl, do you think this is love? If he can't wait, so why the hell you swap with your first time to keep him? This is a no-profit business. Guess what? When you get pregnant, he will throw you with money and ask you to leave. He won't be responsible. This kind of man never use their brain to think. They use their d... to think. And even after you break up, sometime, he might call you and meet you up and ask for sex again and again. Yep, and you think he's still loving you. And you think this is the best way for you to keep him for not leaving. NOO, WAKE UP PLEASE.

So, it's not a shame of being a virgin though. Shame is how those people laugh at you. Those people should be shame. They don't deserve a good girl like us rightttt?

Well, I randomly ask a question on my another social network. The question is: If your gf doesn't want to have sex with you, will you have sex with another girls to fulfil your satisfaction but without her knowledge?
The answer I get was:
-NOOO! I will wait till she gets ready (Wooots what a gentleman who loves his gf)
-Hey that's cheating! (Whoa, good guy too)
-I wouldn't mind tho, but if it's gonna takes long time, I will think of breaking up. (Nawwww =/)
-Absolutely NO! If he loves you, he wouldn't do that. (nice :D )
-Nope, I wont hurt her :) (GREAT!!)

See, guys are not that bad. They can wait for you if they really love you. But if they don't, hmmm. It means you guys need to sit back and discuss about it.

Honestly, if you're not ready, don't do it. Even if you're doing it, make sure everything is safe. That's the main point. If you're pregnant, is not about you and him. Is about your family and his family and also the innocent baby. Think twice babes!

But oh well. If you're still virgin just keep virgin till you really stable or maybe married. And if you're not, make sure you are happy now. Past is already past.

Oh wait, before I end this, this is actually about people at our age. Don't go and ask your mother:  Ma, are you still virgin?

National Service?

Recently saw lots of teens keep posting about national service. They got it or not. Oh well, everyone is like: Dafuq? I'm so unlucky!! Why the hell they choose me!!

Seriously I have the same thought with you when I first knew this. Like: Stupid government, stupid plkn, stupid stupid waste my time! But after I went, I changed my mind.

Let me tell you fun parts and the bad parts of it  :)

First of all, you should know we need to wake up early in the morning everyday! Except of weekends. But unlike muslim, they need to wake up more earlier than the non muslim. So non muslim like us, sleep til 6am something, wake up, wash their faces and walk to the field.

Non of our friends like to wake up so early. Everytime when we wake up, we scold lots of bad words. "WTF, everyday not enough sleep nia! So early wake up for what" At the end, we need to get up and walk like a zombie to the field. You can't imagine the level of sleepy-ness. Is so damn freaking sleepy. We could fall asleep even when we standing. Trust me. That's what we did.

When we get to the field, oh well, a field without grass. And the floor is so hard. But while waiting the muslim to done their pray, we actually sleep on the floor and continue our dreams even only few minutes. But the best part is, we lay on the floor, and look to the sky together with all our friends. That feelings was the best. I remember how the sky used to be full of stars and sometime we could see shooting stars :) Best part. Then we fall asleep.

And only a few minutes on the hardest floor ever in the world, we are force to wake up. And sing all the national songs. Seriously, we standing there without singing and sleeping. You seriously cant believe how sleepy we are. Done those singing, Then start our exercise. This is the part can make us more energize. Running the whole field. Jump here jump there, do this do that. Morning exercise every morning!

Done with that, BAHAHAHAHA, best part of it. Choose which company start to walk back to canteen and have breakfast. We can't run, cant walk but to march like a boss back to canteen. Or maybe we need to sing our company song. A song that we need to create by ourself and sing it for the rest of the 3 months.

Then breakfast time! Hells ya, sometime foods are not delicious but we still need to eat it. No choice. And, we need to line up. Gosh, can't imagine. Youre so hungry and yet you need to wait.

Done eating, time to go back and get changed again. Next activity: YES, WE HAVING CLASS. A really bored class but we learned lots of things. Like moral stuffs, some unbelievable knowledge and whatsoever.

Well, to me. When we first get to the class, the first thing to do is: Wow, got lengzai mou?! On the first day, yes, I saw a lengzai *Hope he's not reading this!* He actually passed me a note and ask for my phone number. I actually didn't give a damn shit and ask him to go away because I thought he is asking for a fatty beside him. Oh Mai Gawt, I didn't know this until the last day I leave the camp. He told me it's his first time to ask for girl's number and I rejected like a boss.  I felt so sorry! Because in the class for the whole 3 months, he's the one I actually keep looking. And I ruined my first impression on the first day.

Yea, we have this kind of class every morning. And a short break for tea time, then continue class until 12.30pm. Freaking tired and sleepy.

Then yes, lunch time. And after that, go back and sleep!! But need to get prepare and wear the full uniform if we have activity. We don't get much time to sleep even we go back to room. Sometime need to wash our clothes. Then sleep for awhile and get up to get prepared. If we're late, we're in fucking trouble!

For all the girls in my room, we actually kinda racist. I mean, I dont mean we hate malays or indians in our room. But indian stick with indian, chinese stick with chinese, and malay stick with malay. On the first day when I know those girls, you can't believe. We felt like we knew each other for few years. Because we're suffering together and go through everything together. We cry, laugh, eat in the rooms, chitchat, gossip, sleep, shower, all together. That's why.

And yep, 2.30pm need to meet up and start activity. There's lots of activities. If you're kind of outdoor person like me, I'm sure you will enjoy! Like going to the jungle, do those extreme activities and so much more! I'll let you go explore. It's fun! Seriously.

And sometime, we don't have to do those extreme. We'll just do some exercise and those sweating stuff. Then we will have short break, tea time! Yes!! Eat!

After that, 5.30pm. It's free time. You can jog, play basketball, football. Just don't sit there and chat. If not youre in trouble again. Til 6.30pm, yes, dinner time! Not delicious,wuekkkk! We usually don't take dinner and eat noodles in room. And yes, we get scold for eating too much of noodles. Lots of people faint the next day because not enough energy. Then, our camp banned noodles. No more noodles allowed!! Sad case~ And we only brought biscuits to eat next time.

Yes, this time. We run back like a kids, shower like a boss! The sweat body is soooo smelly. The best part of it, shower at night time. Usually when we shower in the afternoon, the time when you get out from toilet, you start sweating again. And you gonna scream FUCK THIS WEATHER! So night time, we shower, eat and then sleep again. Even for a few minutes we have. Sorry to say that, the next thing is, we have activities for you again. Is either those lousy speech, lousy movie to show or whatever. And if we fall asleep, you're in trouble again. Or sometime we have class. Religion class.

Then 10.30pm. Check check. Who's not there who's there. Report and go back sleep! This is the best part. Everyone run to their room, brush teeth and dead. My friends more worst, they change cloth for tomorrow morning and straight away fall asleep on their bed. Yep, 11.30pm, all the light must close and everyone must be on their bed. If they found out you're not there, you're in trouble again.

Sometime, something, scary might happen at night. But most of us slept like a dead body. Like some of our malay friends eating at night and get caught, our leader ask them to jump like a duck. But none of us actually heard that noise. Seriously, dead ! Sleep like a dead body.

Monday to Friday is almost the same. 1 day eat 6 times. Lots of activities every different days. I kinda excited and enjoyed. Seriously :D

Weekend, don't need to wake up so early. But at least 9 something? Get up and collect mobile phone day! Yes, then we can start sms and start calling the whole world lol (:

Yep, usually need to be careful because someone might steal your phone.But oh well, not happening in our room. Good room mate we had.

Sunday, family can come to visit us! Oh yea, hello parents. See some kids start crying when they see their parents. And yea, some need to work on that day. I mean guide parents to go there, stand at the front door to greet. Is fun. And night, religion class. Buddist go there, muslim go there, christian go there. And so on so on. It's fun part for me, because usually when we go temple, they provided us foods and yes!! Chinese foods!! Been eating malay foods for the past 5 days! Can you imagineeeeeee??

Duh, and when it's last month, more and more exciting games for us. Overnight in the jungle, shower and swim at the river, search for the foods in the jungle, build camp by ourself, sleep in there and donate blood to mosquitoes, climb so far, walk into the jungle at night, BBQ and make fire by our own, sit together and eat, woke up in the middle of night to work, I mean patrol. Check and see who's gone, ask them go back to sleep if saw them walking around. It's so memorable. Because we live in a very hard life. MAD!! Even those girly princess already get used to this life.

Next day, burn our camp! LOL, jk. Oh well, before we go to the jungle, we actually carry a very big bag and climb. Suffering. the boots is so heavy, the uniform is so thick, the sweat is so yieeew, the mosquitoes are so annoying. Everything seem to be so bad!

Yet is so enjoyed.

And best part, able to touch the gun and shoot! Hells yea babe! Woooots,cant believe I can play the gun. They call it m16? Seriously? Don't seem like it is. And lay on the ground, with the hot sun. Fuck! Steam

Friends all went back to kl and never come back to camp. So the room became quiet. And I told my dad to bring my electric keyboard so I can kill my time in room. Oh yea!! But few weeks later, they give a warning that they will took all our music instrument because it's noisy. I was like, WTF? I only touch it when no one is around. How the hell is noisy? Soooo, the warning is actually to those guys who play guitar in the middle of night. Brainless. lol, lucky I'm the only one who brought the keyboard and they didn't take my keyboard away. If not, I got nothing to do in the room anymore.

Friend from other room wanna borrow my keyboard to perform in the last night. I wanna reject but, everyone is begging me. If I say no, they gonna call me stingy for the rest of the day we left there =|

So the last night, I need to carry my keyboard to set up. And accidentally, I was randomly making noise, playing randomly notes while they adjusting the sound. Then I get scold. That fellow in charge told me to play something. Goshhhh, seriously I'm not good in playing it. My hands was shaking on the stage. I simply play a song which I familiar with and wow, everyone is clapping their hands under the stage when I finished the whole song. Luckyyyyy. *oppps, showing off d lol*

And the last day last night, basically most of my friends already ran away from camp because they can't stand it anymore. They gave a reason that they need to start study. But all of them actually fail on their spm. But I decided to stay longer even though I'm smart ass among them. *Shit, they gonna kill me if they see this!* LOL, and I stayed til the last night, I don't regret. Because yea, finally.

The 3 months of suffering finally done. And we got the certificate. And thanks god. I'm tough enough to stay till the last day! Nothing gonna push me down anymore! LOL

When we came out and get back to our own house, I can't get used to it. I kinda missed the life in there. So discipline. Good bye camp!

Parents Never Understand Us

Well, being tired with your parents keep nagging on whatever you do? Scolding and complaining on whatever you did. Seriously, YES I AM. I know they are being so concern and worry about us all the time. But please, listen to me before you start your speech okay? 

Am I really that bad in your eyes now? Honestly??

(1) Hanging out there late.
Okay, I know all the parents gonna be freaking worried when their kids are still hanging around in the city late night. Yes, I understand your feelings. I do. But yo, I'm out there YAM CHA. Not like how you think: dance in the club, drink like a boss and drunk like a dead meat. Seriously, that's not my activity.

(2) Facing the laptop too long
Yo, seriously. Do you want me to face toilet bowl all day long? What do you expect me to do when I'm home? Clean the toilet, wash the clothes, sweep the floor, water the flower, feed those zombie dogs? Okay, let's say I'm done with all that. Let's say I did what you told me to. But I know, you only have a perception that: WHAT SHE KNOWS IS FACING THE LAPTOP. And she doesn't even realize when I'm watering the plants. That's why.

(3) Stop staying in the room !
I'll tell you what? When I'm not hanging out like whole week whole month, staying in the house doing nothing. I actually got scold that: WHY THE HELL YOU KEEP STAYING AT HOME LIKE A RETIRE GRANDMA? Hello, what do you expect me to do? When I hang out, you worried like an ant. When I'm not, you saying me like a grandma?

(4) Why don't you love yourself?
Wow, seriously, this is pissed me off ! You said I don't love myself? I don't take good care of myself now? Hello, am I one of those kids who trying to commit suicide when I'm sad? Am I? Am I one of those teenagers who smoke weeds? Take drugs? Drink alcohol like a boss? Am I? You seriously no idea how much I love myself and I'm not gonna shame you! Are you blind?

(5) Don't get pregnant before married !
Oh well, this is what they worrying the most ! And seriously, do you know me well? Honestly, I NEVER HAD SEX BEFORE. Trust me or not, I don't care. But just to let you guys know, don't worry. You got no idea how much I love myself. And for those guys, FUCK AT YOUR OWN RISK. You got no idea what you gonna deal with when your sperm meet the egg! If you love her, respect her!

(6) Why don't you study?
Gosh, tell me the reason why you want me to study? To get good result and get a good job with high pay right? You know Bill Gates quote: I failed in some subjects in exam, but my friend passed in all. Now he is an engineer in Microsoft and I'm the owner of Microsoft. Seriously, I feel stupid when I study so hard to get all A's in my exam.

(7) Stop doing shit that wasting your time
Okay, for example: I love to play electric guitar. I play it everyday and finally I pissed you off because of the noise pollution that I made. You told me stop wasting time playing that shit and do something healthy. Like maybe go for rock climbing because it's your favourite. The point is when we're doing something we love to, it's not wasting time. When we're doing something we don't love, that's considering wasting time. WHY THE HELL YOU FORCING SOMETHING WE DON'T LIKE TO DO AND MAKE YOURSELF HAPPY? Is that what we should do to please you because you're the one who bring us to this world? If that so, OKAY, fine. I'll do whatever you want me to do.

(8) Don't use rude words when you talk to me
Wow, did you just say rude words? I thought I just heard you came out heaps of rude words when you're scolding me last night. Err, do you think you can convince me not to use rude words now? IF you want me to respect you, do you think you should respect me too? I don't beg for much, just a little of respect from you? You know how it feels when I scold you with bad words. And exactly how I feel when you pop out rude words to me.


Seriously, I hate you but I don't mean I don't love you. But I'm tired of being nice and yet what I get is all your dissatisfy. I tried so hard to be good.

At least
I don't go to club. I'm so so an anti clubber. I even hate my friends of going club.
I don't drink or consume alcohol. See, I know is bad to drink. That's why I'm not like them, drink every night and call that a relax day.
I don't smoke. You told me smoke is bad for health. See, I even scold my friends of being such a smokers.
I don't take drugs. If it's serious, I might die. I don't want to die before you guys man!
I study hard just because I don't want to fail any subjects. I even study harder just to get all A. What do you expect from me now?

If you gonna say I'm not good kid. Okay, I will learn from mistake and force myself to be a good kid. But hey, don't forget who bring us to this world, and who taught us what is life, and whatever it is. If we're not good enough, what about you?

The so called 'popular' girls

Okay, so this is just a short post !

Girls, you don't have to flirt around with every guys to make yourself well-known. Yea? You did that? Giving chances to every guys, giving them hopes and disappoint them like you don't give a shit. And tell them you're not ready for a relationship. and acting like innocent to make them won't hates you but to want you more. And that's it. You reached your goal. So every guys will love you more. And so, you think you're popular enough because you know lots of guys yea?

Okay, imagine that you're going to tesco. To buy something right? The reason people go to TESCO is to purchase some cheap things. So, look at the part which having sales. Lots of people is fighting to get the cheap products. And yes, you're the cheap things which has high demand. Oppps, don't pissed off first. If you're pissing off now, it means you feel like you're like one of those so called 'popular' girls.

So basically, girls don't have to show off to other people saying that: Wow, who the hell you think you are? You should know lots of guys are chasing after me. And you? Get lost before I start bark!

Same thing, tesco on sales. Cheap product=lots of people chasing after. The cheapest you are, the more people want it. Conclusion, I don't see this is a proud thing to show off tho. Are you? 

So yea, seriously. If you wanna be well-known. You don't have to be so slutty. You know? Because either male or female gonna hate you. Seriously!! Male and female wouldn't like this kind of fake slut flirty little girl.

I don't understand why every guy comes to you and you can just accept them as your bf. Oh no, seriously every guys? This is so sick !! I know you could them as your driver, to buy things you want and etc. Yea? You think this is fun?

I won't ask you to change because you will change when you started to think mature. And this is your playing period ?

Is like myvi car and Ferrari. Any of your dream luxury cars. Myvi, you can see it everywhere on the road. You might get crazy when you started to calculate how many Myvi cars passed by on this high way. Why Myvi car? Because it's cheap and affordable by everyone. And when I ask you to calculate the number of Ferrari passed by this high way. Probably like less than 10, 5, or even zero. Ferrari, everyone dreams to own it but it's too expensive. No way it can be so expensive. That's why. It's the same thing. You want to be a Ferrari or a Myvi car?

Myvi, the reason people buy it because it's cheap and they need a car. Same thing like people want you because you're chase-able and easily get it and also they need a gf. Ferrari, they want it but they know they can't have it. *Doesn't apply on those rich fellow who owned a Ferrari car here* Like a pretty girl who is really beautiful but they can't have it. Because you just can't.

Normally, those so called popular girls think they are pretty and that's why lots of guys are chasing after. Psst, you know what? Your so called pretty is consider nothing and it's normal everywhere. You know what I mean? It means, when you walk on the street. 10 out of 9 are pretty. It depends how they act. Slutty one? Nerd one? Shy one? Or a lansi one. So, don't think you're pretty and flirt with everyone.

A girl who I will admire is not those slutty one for sure, not so popular, not a smart ass but a girl who is pretty but will never act like: Duh bitch, I'm pretty. Stop looking at me. A girl I will admire is where she has lots of admires and she is beautiful and yet, she is so loyal to her bf. Like, her bf is everything for her. This is double thumbs up for her.

For those so called popular one, never loyal. Always create story and post status said I love you, I miss you and act innocent like dump by guys or whatsoever. Bitch please. And change bf always because always think that: I'm pretty, I deserve a better guy and so she dump the current bf. How long you think you can maintain this kind of lifestyle?

Guy, if you think you met this kind of girl. Is either you think you could change her mind and her life. Or you just get lost and admit you are one of her victim. Wake up !

Girl, myvi or ferrari ?

A post for my dad :)

If you click into my blog now, PLEASE, spend a few minutes to finish all. Or you just have to scroll down to read the last paragraph.

Well if you read my post before, you shoulda read one of my post for my dad for his birthday though. Hmm, I know he sometime will accidentally will click on my blog link and see what's that. I was surprised and I asked him: wow, you got see my blog meh? Him: yea, last time I clicked and saw those pictures. Is that you who wrote everything on that blog? Wow, so pro ! Then I was like: Err, normal la. Hahaha.

Okay so as you know, it's father's day yea? So again, this post is specially for him again. Duhh, I think my mum will get jealous if she saw this too cause I never write anything about her.

Let's start the story now.
My dad ah my dad. You wouldn't believe this is happening. Is because I myself don't believe it too. When I was in Australia, *Oh my holiday* and I got the news that, MY DAD IS IN ICU.

At first I was like: huh? ICU? what is that again? I didn't know it was that serious until my mum text to my aussie number and told me: We are going back to hometown to see your dad. Few hours later, she texts me again and said: He's coma now!

And I was still like: what is coma again?

At night, when I'm free. I started to realize it's not as simple as I thought. So, the problems occur now. Should I go back to Taiping now to see him? Or, just wait and see how. Then the devil and angel are fighting inside me. And I decided to stay ! See how evil I am? Always say how much I love him but when he is in trouble, I still enjoying the holiday like mada faka. Wuuu, I hate myself.

But deep inside me, I know what's my dad thinking. If he knows, he wouldn't let me come back earlier. But for me, I know he is tough enough. He will absolutely gonna wake up from coma.

This picture I posted on facebook is actually for him. But he never ever see this. 

Is already 3days, he is in coma. I just wanna say:

"Dad, please wake up. Stop sleeping anymore!! :'( "

Remember how he just learned how to use the video call in facebook. He was so excited for the first time. Keep asking me to video call with him. But I haven't set up the video call with him and I was gonna ignore him. But he is still like: why can't call you? and lots of things. So I throw away my lazyness and set it up. 

And it's so different feelings when you get to see him on the cam because we used to skype but only call without cam. This time is different. So we start our random topic and talk talk. 

When I was at Australia, he called me again. And I started to tell him everything. Like: see, this is heater. It blows hot air :p ! Then he was like: omggg, you don't know how hot it is in Malaysia now!! Then we LOL there. I told him so cold at night and need heater. 

Few days later, he called me again but I was watching naruto and didn't realized it. When I call back, no one answer. And the next day, the news he went into ICU broke my heart. I was soooo regret!! Why I never realized it! Fuck myself!! 

He is a marathon lover. He loves to jog. He doesn't smoke. Such a healthy fellow. That's why I can't believe it! How can he just faint while he is jogging and sent to the hospital. They told me his heart actually stopped for few minutes. Seriously?! Is this actually happen? 

He loves to jog and always go for the marathon. And all of us, brothers and mother bought a G-shock watch for him because he has waiting for it such a long time. When we bought it, he is so damn freaking excited. And I snap a picture for him and posted it on facebook to show him. He even video call me purposely just to want me to show him the watch. And keep saying, wahhh so beautiful.

Few weeks later, he is on the g-shock watch fever. He started to do research on it. And keep telling me, this watch is good, that watch is good. lol, then i just answered him: haiya, you should do the research earlier so I can get the one you like ma. We bought a watch that not really satisfy him. But still, he always wear it like it's his babe. 

So, like I expected. He woke up few days later! Wuhooooo! But not really in good condition. 

And here, I seriously wanna thanks to those friends who actually keep updating me about my dad. Duhh, even friends are much more clearer than me. What a failure I am. 

Before the day I coming back to Malaysia, I called him. I told him: Dad, I'm coming back tomorrow! He answered me: Why so fast come back?.. I was like: wow !? fast? But he is kinda blur. 

Now, he woke up and discharge from the hospital. But seriously, I missed lots of stories that happened. How they take shift to take care of dad in the hospital, what my dad said when he is in a really blurry situation, how they talk about the soul and all those ghost stories. I seriously missed it! I shoulda be there!

Yes, how I always say how much I love my dad, but when this shit happen, see what I'm doing? fail!! I wanna be part of it to help. Lucky those hospital fees shits are not expensive. But I know in the future, we gonna pay this and that and everything. I know my brothers and my mother is actually spending a lot for him.

虽然你是醒了，可是你可以再清醒点吗？

少了你，我就少了一个人可以诉苦，少了一个可以说心事的对象，少了一个我可以哭着打电话也不出声。最重要的，少了你，我还可以向谁撒娇？

I don't need those: stay tough ha liqii, ure dad gonna be fine and etc etc. Seriously, what you can do is, click on the nuffnang advertisement that you can see. It's already helping me. Yea? 

So I'm gonna do my part here for my dad. 'Dude, I love you man! You never know! :)'

And you, if you don't mind, just click on the nuffnang advertisement on top, bottom and side. It doesn't kill. I know you won't ask for my bank account and bank in me the money to help me. So, this is the only way you could help :) 

God bless you guys ! xoxo

How to travel alone safely?

Well, it's been a month since the last post. Think I should get my ass here to start another new post. I'm not lazy to post a new post but I got no idea to write what. What's actually interesting? Friends used to give me idea on writing about my own life, what did I do, where did I go all those kind of things. To be honest, I think those kind of shits kinda bored. Am I right? Who the hell cares what I did, where I went.

Now, I'm bored to death. So I have to force myself to write something since my friends keep asking me to update it. Duhhhh!

Err, I'm bored because I'm in Melbourne (not showing off okay?!). Shops and malls here closed at 5pm. So I got no place to hang around but to stay at home. A long long long night to spend with watching anime on laptop. I thought I'm on vacation? =/

Okay, back to the topic. I have lots of friends, they love travel. Seriously! We love travelling! Oh yea~ But sometime we can't get a good partners or group of friends. It's always tough to plan everything. Please everyone else in a group. That's why I choose to travel alone. You don't have to take care of your friend and the most important thing is your friend doesn't need to take care of you. Fair.

If you wanna travel, the first thing you must concern issssssssssssssssssssssss,
1) Book your flight ticket. Plan your own trip
-lol, this is the main thing to do. Know where you are going, know what you want. I know you have your dream place to go. So just book your flight ticket and get ready for it. It's your own trip, so plan whatever you wanna do. Eating icecream down the street half naked during winter?

2) Prepare everything that you need or maybe buy those stuffs over there.
-what you need? passport, visa if needed. And those shampoo, clothes..? But for me, camera is important! Bahahahaha! List it out if youre hardworking, or maybe you can memorize everything you need to bring.

3) Always keep in mind that, 'take care of yourself'
-When you're alone, nobody gonna look after you. So whatever you do, think twice. Is it safe? Should I do this? This is what I always concern.

4) Know about their culture
-If it's possible, you could do some research about the country. If you're so hardworking to? I didn't do any research but I ask people from that country. Hey, why the doors can't lock? Seriously, the door for the room, and the toilet door, cannot be locked here. -_-

5) Money $$$
-You don't have to be rich to travel. What you need to do is be aware of budget. Don't overspend. Don't get crazy when you see shopping mall and start buying stuffs. LOL, too much of sale now!! I can't stand it! Oh well, just estimate what you gonna spend like foods? transportation? If you're not lazy, maybe you can jot down whatever you spend. But if you're super rich, who the hell cares? Spend like a boss! This is why you're here!

Addition:
-Keep all your $$ and passport in a bag which you carry the most. Becareful. Don't  be the target of thieves.

6) How long you gonna stay here?
-Well, if the place you're going is near, maybe 4D3N? Like my friend said, if you're going to a really really far place, spend like 793742933 hours on the plane and you stay there for 3D2N? What can you do? Too tired to play around because you sit too much on plane. If it's far, shoulda stay there at least 7days. Play like a boss, walk like a boss, run like a boss! Nobody knows you.

7) Where to stay?
-On the street. Get a sleeping bag. Safe costs! Just kidding. If you're hardworking, start to do research on hotel. Or if you have friends or relatives, easy! Or maybe stick with the first plan, get a sleeping bag.

8) A trip for yourself
-If it's a trip for yourself to relax, choose a friend who needs to relax too. Like I said, if you're going with a bunch of friends, is either you need to please them, follow their rules, or they follow yours. I don't like travel with bunch of friends, it gets complicated. Like I wanna go beach, but those girls wanna do their shopping. Hello, those shopping malls are all the same. Even same brand. We still can see burberry, gucci, lv in every country. WHY THE HELL YOU WASTE YOUR TIME OVER HERE? That's what I dislike. So, choose a friend who has the same thinking with you :) But still, alone is better

9) Make friends !
-Oh, my favourite parts! Get new friends here. Hangout with them so you don't have to be alone. If you're my close friends, you shoulda know I'm super duper hyper like white guys! Can't really see much in my country. I keep smiling alone on the street because it's all my type. Duhh, I'm melting! opps, back to topic. Yea, just make new friends. That's it.

10) Plan a tour
-Sometime you don't know what's fun here and how to get to that place or whatever it is. Just go to travel agency in that country and get some 1 day trip. It's fun! :)

11) Get a sim card
-It's easier if you get a sim card. Cheaper to call back to your country. Give some of your friends know your  mobile number so they can get to you.

12) Build your confidence
-Aww I love this part. I watched a movie before. The girl said: Mum, bring me to travel. I wanna go travel. Then the mum touched her daughter's face and said: Girl, travel can be alone. You don't need people to bring you. YESSS, I agree with that mum. You're old enough to do so! Just go ahead :) Prove to people that: HEY I'm not a kid anymore!


That's it for now. Before I said goodbye, I seriously want to thanks to my parents.
My dad: He always there to support me no matter what Im doing.
When I tell him: Dad, I'm going to Australia next month. His respond: Again? With who? Me: Alone. Him: Oh. Then he change the topic like no big deal.
Few weeks later: eh, when you going? Remember get me souvenir.

My mum: She is scarier than my dad to be honest.
Me: Mum, I'm gonna tell you something but promise me you won't angry ok?
Mum: *Stare at me*
Me: Promise?
Mum: YES!
Me: *Stop breathing* I'm going to Aus next month!
Mum: WHAT? AGAIN? WITH WHO? WHY ALWAYS FLY HERE FLY THERE?
Me: ...
Then she will start her speech. But at the end, she will send me to the airport. Phewww~


Ending~
Thank you. I'm not a kid anymore but I'm still your daughter :)