爱你 ♥

Finally I'm in a mood to update my blog and also I'm in a mood to scare people ! Hells yea.

Yea, this time. Phew, after a long time. *nervous*

I got a song to introduce for you.

Most of my friends heard this song. Some friend introduced it to me but I don't give a damn before.
After seeing so many people post about this song, finally I actually pay attention on the song and whoa, it's sweet :3

Honestly, I don't listen to chinese songs much because it always seem so emo and sad to me. But well, this time. I learned this song purposely. And as usual, I need to go search on youtube, guitar chord, piano sheet.

At first, I follow piano sheet and I realized it sounds so weird. I searched for guitar chord, and it's better. Soooo, I spend another hour to think how to combine everything. Ahhh, finally it's done.

Suppose today is a wasted day, but lucky I found something to do. And everytime when you found something to do and make yourself busy, your phone gonna ring non stop. Ahhh, knock it off knock it off!

Stop the bullshit thing.

Google search for this girl if you don't know who is that.

And this is the lyrics. Sorry to those fellows who can't read chinese ;)

爱你 kimberley 陈芳语 歌词 ♥

我閉上眼睛 貼著你心跳呼吸
而此刻地球 只剩我們而已
你微笑的唇型 總勾著我的心
每一秒初吻 我每一秒都想要吻你

*就這樣 愛你 愛你 愛你 隨時都要一起
我喜歡 愛你 外套 味道 還有你的懷裡
把我們衣服鈕扣互扣 那就不用分離
美好愛情 我就愛這樣貼近 因為你*

有時沒生氣 故意鬧脾氣
你的緊張在意 讓我覺得安心
從你某個角度 我總看見自己
到底你懂我 或其實我本來就像你

*就這樣 愛你 愛你 愛你 隨時都要一起
我喜歡 愛你 外套 味道 還有你的懷裡
把我們衣服鈕扣互扣 那就不用分離
美好愛情 我就愛這樣貼近 因為你*

想變成你的氧氣 溜進你身體裡
好好看看在你心裡 你有多麼寶貝 我愛你
就這樣 愛你 愛你 愛你 隨時都要一起
我喜歡 愛你 外套 味道 還有你的懷裡
把我們衣服鈕扣互扣 那就不用分離
美好愛情 我就愛這樣貼近 因為你
我們愛情 會一直沒有距離 最美麗

Yes, it's me. Don't inbox me and ask me is that you who sing on the video..? Don't do it. Or else I'll kill you.

And yea, it's a nice song to sing to a guy you like, girls. Do it :D 

True, lots of friends keep asking me doing this. And finally I'm done. Thank youuuuuu~ 

That's it. 

Thanks :D 

Extra Pocket Money?

Ever know that you get paid by just clicking advertisements?

In my blog, yea. If people click on my nuffnang advertisement which is on top of my blog, beside andelow. I get paid. And yea its fucking true. $$$$$. 

Now, there's another way of it.

And oh well, continue read it if you're interested to get extra pocket money by just clicking advertisements. I know everyone love money, that's why I'm gonna share it here! :)

It's true and obvious that everyone is posting about this clicking advertisements things and I know everyone has that in their mind. But the main thing is they don't give a damn to ask what the fuck is that and how the hell it works. 

Okay, if you ever heard about it and never asked about it. I'll tell you. But if you don't, now you know. 

It's simple, what you need to do everyday is.. 

You spend a few minutes on the internet and click on those advertisement. Damn, it's lots of advertisement for you to click but you have a limit, that you can only click 5 advertisements per day. And one advertisement you click you basically earn like RM1+, and imagine how much you could get in a month? 

Let's say it's RM1, 1 day you click 5 advertisements and you get RM5, in a month you more or less gonna get like RM150? Or maybe less? Like RM100 per month? Depends on those advertisement you click. 

Since everyone are spending most of their time on the internet, why don't we just give it a try? 

I don't know, maybe you're too afraid of try. But well, if you dare to take risk, why not?

But if you don't, oh well, you never know what's gonna happen after you try. 

And yea, I'm actually trying it. 

So, if you're kind of person who always sit infront of your pc, laptop and can't leave without internet. Maybe you should consider try this. You just need to spend few minutes just to click on advertisement. And yea, pocket money come :3 

Pm me on facebook if you're interested :) 

Im sorry, this is just a short post. Have a nice day there. 

Who wants to lose weight?!

Oh wait, don't look at me like this ok? No, I'm not trying to lose weight. I'm asking if you want to?

Well, like I said. I don't hate fat people, I only hate them when they said they want to lose weight and look slim but don't give a damn to do anything. Still seeing them eat a lot like they never see foods before. Are you one of them?

So, listen to me. Make up your mind now. If you really want to look slim, look nice, look thin or etc. Don't want to look like a burger and walking around the mall and never attract anyone to look at  you. Please, now! If you have a plan, stick with it until it success. Don't give up.

You can go to gym workout, beware of what you eating. Seriously, stop eating like a dinosaur. You gotta stop it. And yes, don't stop eating. You don't have to do that. What's the point when you can lost 92479759375 kg in a month? You think is fucking healthy? Hells no you stupid. In that 92479759375kg, think! What did you lost? Your fat? Your organs? Your shits? Think, if you really think losing weight means you're thin. You're so damn wrong.

Even if you stop eating for few days, only eat fruits. For fuck sake, I'm sure you gonna lose your weight. Or, you get sick and dead on your bed for few days, you lose your weight. It's not that tough to lose your weight. Trust me. But what's important is, you lose your weight slowly, look slim day by day, or I say month by month in a healthy way. Please, I don't want any of my friends keep eating slim pills and run to toilet every day just to think that's the way to slim. You eat too much rubbishes. That's why you gotta shit out of your stomach.

It depends on you how you gonna do this. Go to those keep fit centre and pay them RM92479749732 and suffer yourself there? You look like a fat white experiment mouse. Or, ask your nutritionist to get you a timetable. Eat healthy. Gosh, it's work. But most of those fat people give up and lose to the devil of foods. They eat ice-cream, chocolate, fried chicken, fast foods secretly. You failed.

Look at you, failure! I told you, I don't hate fat people, I only hate them when they can't keep a promise for themselves. You remember you promise yourself  that you must look slim in half year? Look at you now, no different! F A I L !!!!!

So what now? I advise you to give up of having the thoughts of losing weight, look slim or etc. Go on and continue eat as much as you like. Who the hell cares? It's your stomach, you eat what you want. You love how you look like. Pity those thin and tiny fellows, they look like they never had foods long time ago.

Or, by now. You must be hate me so much. Saying so much of mean words and actually pissed you off? AM I RIGHT? You're angry and calling me a bitch now! Oh well, if you really angry. I feel sorry to you. Because I guess, you think I'm saying you now. Oppps, does that mean you're the failure? The one who said want to look pretty, handsome there? And now, still a big fat people?

If I pissed you off, well, I will have to say sorry. I have to admit that lots of my friends saying the same real thing to me. They don't look that fat actually, or maybe yes? Because they never satisfy with their body shape. So, they told me. Look into my eyes, say it really really serious that, I'M GONNA LOSE MY WEIGHT! Trust me, this time I'm serious. For the first time, I do give them support. Like, I can't say anything to make them disappointed. So sometime I give them support and ask Hey hows it going there?

Well, guess what? Their reply. No, I give up already. I eat too much. Can't stop.

OH BULLSHIT! I was like: Damn, is that the same person I see last few months? The one who knows what they wanna achieve and now? Seriously, I'm disappointed. Seriously, as a friend, I really wish they can do it and happy. So now, everytime whenever someone told me that they want to lose their weight, I will be the most mean-est people ever in the world.

'You gonna lose your weight? Cheh, I'm sure you fail. Don't ever think about it. Keep eating, eat whatever you want. Who knows you gonna die tomorrow and you don't get to eat your KFC?'

'Go to gym everyday? No need la, eat at home. Don't waste your money go gym la. Few weeks later you sure give up. (Sai hei la)."

They just failed to let me see. They do.

Ok, so now. If you really angry, that's great. My intention. Make up your mind, set a target. And do it!

Losing weight is easy, but losing weight in a healthy way, is so damn difficult. And remember, you must do it. Prove to the whole world they are wrong. No matter how long it's gonna take, don't give up! Think, if you give up now, the next time when you wanna keep fit again, you have to start all over again. So, no matter how tough. Go! You're halfway now.

And hehe ya, look. The plan is you gonna eat some supplement and you gotta exercise.That's the main thing. Am I right? You need to exercise. Don't give up.

Yes, like what I see. My friend usually eat pills, drink those shitting teas. Oh well, ever heard of gel? :D If no, you're so damn outdated. When you're eating pills, sometime you didn't realize that the pills never digested and stuck in your stomach. After a long time, you gg, die! Hahaha. Just kidding. It's just bad. And shitting tea  only let you shit whatever you eat last night. It means you shit out those foods' nutrients and vitamins. Conclusion: Zero.

But for gel, it's easily adsorb into you body. And it's true. Gel are easily absorb by your body compare to pills. There's lots of supplement out there. But all are like powders, pills etc etc. No gel? Ngek ngek~ This means I'm knowledgeable than you now. YES YES.

For those who want to keep fit, maybe you can try the gel called agel. I show you picture if you confuse.

See it? Is cute,  you tear off the upper part and you just eat it. It's really cute! Haha and it's sweet :3 Seriously haha ! And yea, it's not that expensive compare to how you go slim centre and go to gym every months. I actually compare it for my friends. Research for them who need to start keep fit. Even I'm mean, but I am not that bad. Just want them to angry and prove to me that I'm wrong. Yea, and this is the only thing I can do for you when I don't get to piss you off. Try this lah, see if it works or not.

Don't worry, I'm not selling it. Just sharing what I know. Thanks me for that! And yea, maybe if you really interested. Just filled it for me and respond. I wanna know how many people actually reading my post and pissed off. Or how many people actually read it and feel like they should start keep fit now. Keep your promise! :3



There, just fill it in if you wanna know more about that gel. Good luck in keeping fit there. Don't make me down! ;))

10 Acting Cute Poses

Oppps, sorry. Too lazy to type so much! Oh well, it's true that I'm lazy to type because I don't know what to talk about. But then, I spend more time in editing those pictures. God bless. Finally I'm done.

So this post is so damn random becasue I'm just gonna show you 10 acting cute poses. Okay, hate me! People just love acting cute. Got this photoshoot last month on September and yea.

Trust me, most of my photoshoot, I'm not allowed to act cute because it looks weird. But this time, it's my day! I can do all those stuffs that I like :D

There you go~

1) Meow :3 

My favourite meow meow pose :)

Just put your hands on your face and acting like a cat.

2) Begging

I don't think this is cute haha !

Oh, please! Bring me home :/

3) Salute

I learned this from a website lol. Never know this is an acting cute pose too.

Put 2 fingers on your forehead and salute, babe

4) Gun

One of my favourite too. Hahaha!

The Gun Pose! Piang piang~

5) Ok

Oh well, the OKAY pose! okay okay~~ :3

The OKAY pose 

6) Hi-Five

Can be Hi, Five or both  ! Hahaha.

The HAI and FIVE pose

7) Shhh

Wiii, this one is my favourite too :)

Is not acting cute, is actually telling you to STFU :p

8) Thinking

I don't really thinking of anything in the picture. Hahahaha. I force myself not to close my eyes.

Just act like you're thinking of some shits. 

9) Crazy


Acting like a crazy bitch in a public.

People scratch their head when they get mad lol 

10) PEACE

Realized I didn't do any PEACE sign in the photoshoot, so I get other pictures to replace it :p

Favourite asian pose! :p

THE END

Thanks for watching :)

Not easy to be good

Thanks to that friend who give me an idea to start another post. Oh damn

Look, log in to your facebook, what I usually see is rob, kidnap, rape, murder etc etc. It makes me feel likes everything gone so bad and different. To take precautions, girls should be careful more and protect themselves. Well, it's because no matter what, girls are always weaker compare to man, boys or whatsoever. Unless you go gym and make out and train like a muscular girls so you can fight back those people. But in real, not all girls did that.

Anyway, I don't know. Writing this post just want girls to becareful. And also to scold one of my friend who being not understanding maybe. Or maybe I'm the one being not understand?

But my post title is 'Not easy to be good'.

I'm kind of girl who:

1) Don't go out at night often. 

Yes, I'm afraid of dark but doesn't mean I don't go out. And if I'm going out, I need to be 100% becareful compare to day time. You see, if night. People mostly already home eating resting. So, not much of people will still hanging out on the street.

Yea, it's true that people keep asking me out to drink sometime. Relax, chatting or whatsoever. Yep, the problem is I rejected them by saying: SORRY, I DON'T GO OUT AT NIGHT. SO DANGEROUS. And so, drama started. I get blame and scold by them that: If you don't want to go out, just tell me. You don't have to give me such a lame excuse to reject me. I understand.

Trust me, I get so speechless.

And my friends' speech continue saying that: We're not like you, don't have to work and stay at home all the time. I'm working as full time, babe! Only get to rest on sunday or public holiday. And free at night. I only got that time to come out drink with you. And you, telling me that you don't go out at night?!

And come on, we are young!! Dude, it's not about being young or old. If you think being young and do all these kind of shits, you will regret when you old. Or maybe not.

See, it's my fault now. I didn't know that, to avoid shits from happen is actually a bad things. I didn't know that, rejecting someone to go out for a drink is bad.

I understand you. But I just don't want to go out at night. I feel not safe. And I don't see the purpose of your 'YAM CHA' session for.

I don't give a fucking damn! And yes, it's a fucking lame excuse to reject you from going out with you!

2) Don't go to club

"Hey Georgina, are you free this saturday?" "Yea, why?" "Let's go clubbing! :) " "Sorry, I don't go club" "^%$()#(%)#%(%#(*%(#%*"

Again, I didn't know that it's wrong for me to not going to club.

Well, what I heard from them is like, "wtf, how old are you?! You don't go club? You gotta be kidding me"

I seriously don't know I will get scold from not doing this shits. And fuck that! What the hell wrong with me from not joining you guys going to club? My god. I try my best to not be those losers. Oh well, not losers.

They said going to club is for enjoy, relax, ..

I'm sorry, I'm pretty sure that's lots of way for you to enjoy, relax. Going to club is like torturing your ears, seeing those idiots get drunk and thrown up. And you don't feel good or happy when the next day you woke up if you actually dead. Well, I'm sorry. Maybe I don't understand what you mean by enjoy/relax in the club.

I just don't want to get TOUCH N GO in the club. Maybe let me be the one to touch n go ;DD

I rather stay at home, turn the music volume up and dance like a psycho at home. I'm sorry.

3) I hate people smoke in front of me, and I throw 'WHAT THE FUCK' face to them.

When I being so sarcastic in front of smokers, I get scold. Is like, I cover my nose, I coughing, I give them an angry face. And my friends are like: Oi, stop it, that fellow will kill you later.

And I was like: What? It's my fault?!

They said: Smoking is normal, it's how they communicate, social etc etc.

I'm sorry, that fellow is not doing a big business, so why the hell he's smoking?!

And if he wanna smoke, can he go as far as possible from those non smokers as a respect? If he didn't know  how to respect others, I don't see what's the point I need to respect him.

I'm sorry again Mr Smoker.

And I saw some people smoke in a non smoking area. And I was like: OMGGG, are you blind?! Get the hell out of here.

I wish they build a small house, I mean a small place for those smokers. And kick them inside when they wanna smoke. So they can inhale the second-hand smoke back itself. Sounds good to me !

Or maybe put a plastic bag on their head. Whoa, I love the idea.

4) Don't fuck
Yes, my friend said I'm gonna be an old ugly virgin lady till I dead. He laugh at me so much. Saying that, if you don't fuck now, when you gonna fuck?!

And I was like: You fuck so much with other girls and randomly, I don't blame you. But please don't ask me to be like them. I'm sorry I cant be what you want me to be.

Yep, I'm sorry to be rude. But he had sex with his gf, pregnant, and abort. Oppps, your secret is now public. Or maybe is not a secret at all.

Is that wrong that I don't fuck? Can't I wait for the right one first?! Are you the one who's gonna judge me? and tell me when to fuck?

Arrghhh, shut the fuck up!

You will be regret when you turned old and think back what you did. Hmmm, I think he's now regret. Get that, loser!

5) Stay at home all the time 

They call me a bored girl when I stay at home all the time. Gosh, I feel sorry to you. Why the hell I need to go out when I can rest at home. OMG OMG, what you want me to do?

If I'm going out, ahhh, need to pay for the petrol, tol, parking and then eat. All about money.

If I'm getting a public transport, save costs. But it's dangerous. Oh well, shits happen to me before when I'm on a public transport. So I just don't want to get into trouble.

Just let me stay at home please!!



Overall, it's not easy to be such a good girl. But who cares?! I love to be such way than being such a bitch.

Bye!

white guys?

hi welcome to my blog.

if you know me well, i guess you know i love white guys yea? but if you dont, at least you know it now. ok, friends keep asking me: why white? why not asian. well, the reason is simple, because im born in asia country, i see asian everyday. so white is something special for me. and they are different. attitude, culture, accent etc etc.
well, i got into lots of trouble because of this. how? see, people are mean. and you cant do anything to please everyone. let me tell you hows my friends behave.
1) some guys who love to tease and make fun of me. when i tell them, nah, i prefer whites than asian. so they ask me a question with a pervert face and dirty mind. ohhh, because biggerand longer? then i was like: what?!!  and they are like hey dont pretend you dont know what i mean. well, i know what you mean but thats not the reason why i like.

2) when i say i like whites, doesnt mean i dislike asian, i hate asian. im asian too, so friends do you actually have a mind or brain when you saying that? i still can hang out with my friends who is asian but doesnt mean i must in relationship with them. who do you think you are to tell me who should i be?

3) this pissed me off the most. yes, im saying you this time and i know youre reading. one of my friend turned so unreasonable and tell me: whites only know how to FUCK. FUCKKKK!!! and i was like. if youre dirty mind and you have this kind of perception on them. i dont care. but dont tell me that youre 100% right on that statement. see, if you say they only know how to fuck, does that mean asian dont know how to? if thats so, how you born? what about your parents? your mum walking in a mall suddenly pregnant and give birth and thats why you born??

i asked lots of friends, they usually told me they are accidents. parents never actually plan to have them. trust me, most of the family did that. they dont have planning. sooo, conclusion white or asian or whatever, youre being so racist. and the statement doesnt make sense and it eventually offense me.

next, if you say white only know how to FUCK, and make babies. look, which country has the highest population? its china. so, china people doesnt know how to fuck or they dont know what is condom?

this is sooo not making any sense. yes, i admit when i was a kid, i do have an perception that whites are ham sap(not sure what is the right english words to use). something like perverts kind of stuff. when you have that kind of perception, you eventualy thinks that asian not hamsap lo. white very hamsap geh. when i grow up, and started to adopt to this realistic world, its not true. both are equally hamsap. if asian dont hamsap, they wont be making so many babies. is the same. some whites are hamsap, some are not. vice versa.

you cant just throw me with your so called research result. oh well, research on those stuffs? part of your assignment or part of your interests? telling me they only know how to fuck, does it means you'd try all of them?

im not being sarcastic or trying to change your mind. i know it doesnt work when people like you always have a mind that think youre always the right one. even the arguement ended up with apologize. i know the sorry you dont mean it. you just dont want this topic to ruin the friendship.

and conclusion for this, not all are the same when ypu only see part of them. telling me such a statement make me feel like you have such a narrow mind. i thought youre an adult but hey you just changed my mind.

yes i admit some of my white friends said sex are fun. or whatever it is. i dont give a damn and didnt plan to try it yet. remember the last posts i was talking about virgin stuff. oh well, my friends, see asian. laughing at me. said sex is so normal so why are you still keeping the first time. i have to say and repeat again, white or asian. they are same. i used to cant accept about those kind of sex stuff. but without parents, we are nothing. so accept it. we are all equal. dont be racist and judge people like you know them sooo well.

sorry about those typo but i dont give a damn. kthxbye~

Girls are complicated. Why?

Hells yea, I'm being so hardworking in updating my blog recently.

So we were shopping in a mall and one of my girl friend actually scream out: Noooo, girls are not complicated at all ! Lets just choose a dress and buy it !

2 of us looking at her and laugh out loud and said: Hahahaha she's crazy. Girls are so complicated because they have no idea what they want. Then we start discussing about it.

See, we don't even know what we gonna get in this store. What we like, what colour of dress we need, what style. And we gonna spend like 1-2 hours over there choose over and over again. Use their fitting room like it's our house. YES, finally we get what we want. Go to the cashier, pay and go.

Then, we start regret and say: I think I should choose the other one, not really like this. etc etc.

1) We don't know what we want and expect you to know. 

See, told you. Girls are so complicated.

If a girl actually drag a guy to go shopping, the guy is dead. When the girl comes out from fitting room with a dress and ask, HOW DO I LOOK?
Your answer: wow, you look great in every dress.
Girls' thought: LIAR.
If your answer: I don't think you look good in this dress.
Girls' thought: You don't know what is fashion.
You don't have an option for your answer. Right?

Since you're the one who gonna pay for the dress, they give you to choose which dress to buy because we still can't make up our mind which dress to get.

2) Jealousy 

Sometime do you ever feel your gf acting really weird and start scolding you without a reason? The way they talk like there's something but when you ask what, they never tell. Yes, girls get jealous easily ! And they will never admit they jealous. Remember the picture we used to see on facebook (can't find it now). The picture is showing the guy asking his gf:
"Baby are you jealous?"
"NO!"
"Baby are you jealous?"
"No!"
"Baby are you jealous?"
"NOOO!"
"Baby can I get a kiss?"
"Go get a kiss from the girl you just liked her picture!"
"..."

See, the reason they saying no is because they don't want to admit that they are actually "small gas". And when you ask can I get a kiss, volcano boom. She thinks you don't have qualification to get a kiss from her ! YOU, stop pretending nothing has happened. I'm jealous now!

Like one of my friend. He has a gf, and still he will hang out with me sometime one on one because he thinks that I HAVE NO FEMININE IN MYSELF. I'm not really a girly type if you get to know me well. I act like a man. No choice, grow out with 5 brothers in a family. Sooo, the main point is, my friend who has a gf and still hang out with me.
I told him: "Oi, you know you are not allowed to hang out with me one on one when you have a gf? She's gonna jealous to dead! Trust me."
He answered: "Nahhh, don't worry. She won't jealous to a guy."
I'm speechless.
Then he added up:" The reason I love her so much because she's not like other girls. She is mature thinking. She understand why. "
Me:" Soo, ok if you say so. I don't know your gf well, so no idea. "

Few weeks later, he talked to me and said: FUCK la, she really jealous because I hang out with you last time.
Me: GOOD.

Told you, girls jealous no matter where, when, why, who, what and don't care how old are you! Even a mum can jealous with her own daughter when her husband loves his daughter so much!

3) Yes means no, No means yes

Heard of this right? Why we do this? I don't know. Sometime girls don't really want to tell you what on their mind. That's why they use the opposite language. And yes, as a bf. They actually expect you to know that.

Him: Hey, you like this dress? I'll buy for you.
Her: Noo, it's okay. (In her mind, oh fuck, drag me to the shop and buy it for me!)
Him: Oh (Walk off)
Her: (What a idiot useless brainless animal!)

True, I heard guys said: You should tell me because I don't know what you're thinking! But girl will never tell you, they seriously expect you to know her well. I guess you need luck to try guess.

4) Frenemies

Acting so good with the other girl, hug each other but bitching about them behind. Woooots, that's what I get to see everyday in my life. I saw those girls like such a good friend, always hang out, snap lots of pictures and post on facebook and say Best Friend Forever. Then I get to know that both of them bitching and talking bad about each other behind. Seriously, why the fuck pretending you girls are such a good friend when you hate each other?

Another case: E saw B in an event, rush to B and hug her and say: Awww long time no see, you getting prettier and prettier now! Done their conversation, E turned to me and said: ISH, I very hate her actually. Always act cute there. Yer!

I'm so speechless, why you go and hug her then? Should pretending like you didn't see her.

So complicated.

5) No dress to wear for the party!

Check her wardrobe, open and those dresses will fall down and fall on you! See, our wardrobe is actually full with clothes but we always claim that we got not enough dress. That's why you see lots of girls keep shopping and buy more and more dresses.

I'll tell you secretly, some of the dresses/clothes that we bought, we only wear it once or we never wear it. We put it in the wardrobe and forget that we actually bought it and no special occasion for that clothes. Or maybe we changed our mind after bought it because the second time we saw that clothes, we feel dislike.

And also, we don't want our friends said that: Yerrr, look at her, she wear the same dress again! Bet she has no other clothes :DD!
Is a shame hahaha that's why we only wear it once and keep it for museum.

I don't know why ! But we just did it.

6)  Carry a big bag 

We carry a big bag, and inside we have nothing important. We can actually stuck all stuff in our pocket but the problem is dress doesn't has a pocket for us. That's why we carry a big bag, throw a little not important stuff in there and acting like so fashion.

When we start shopping, we actually forget we have a big bag. And lost our bag. Hahahaha.

I don't know why.

7) Tricky Question 

Bet your gf loves to ask you tricky question like If me and your mother fall into the sea, who will you save first? Lame question, just throw her with a lame answer.

"So, who is hotter? Your ex or the one you were staring at 2 minutes ago" This is a trick question. She doesn't care about your ex, she doesn't care about the other woman, she is mad at you for staring but she won't tell you that. (I copied this from an article, true enough!)

Told you, girls are just complicated. Why can't we just slap you on face and say stop staring!

8) Different clothes all the time

Yep, all the time. Morning different, evening different, night different. Like you're working in office and night you have a party. You won't see them in a small clothes, they will absolutely change.

Morning picnic, different casual shirt, evening watch movie, different dress, night dinner, different clothes again.

I don't know why. But we just want a comfortable dress for different occasion.

9) Going to wash room in a group

If you actually dine in with a group of friends, when a girl say: Excuse me, I'm going to toilet, anyone? The other girls gonna say: Yes yes me too!! Then they go to the toilet together!

But if guy actually did that, girls gonna gossip behind them and wondering are they gay.

Why? I don't know. Safety maybe. Who knows there's a wolf hiding in the toilet?

10) Gossip  

Yes, we love gossip. We spend most of our time just gossip. Whatever topic it is, we just gossip. Talk about those girls in our school. The guy we like and bitching about everything.

I know guys do gossip. But it will never be as serious as how those girls did.

Why? Favourite topic in our life.

11) Asking you: Am I fat?

Girls are always too afraid to gain weight. Eat too much, no exercise etc etc. Seriously, sometime woman turns fat easily after give birth and it's not easy to get back to the original shape.

Yea, asking guy about this is so annoying. Sometime guys just don't understand why when they see her still look the same. But trust me, the way we're asking this because we feel our arms getting big, our weight increase 1kg, tummy not flat enough, face getting round, etc etc. Guys wouldn't know all these shits but yet we keep asking.

Girls are so complicated. And I don't know why we're so confusing.

In conclusion, girls are so complex, difficult to fathom and impossible to predict!

Is virgin a shame?

HELL NO!

What? Being a virgin is a thing to proud of. At least you're not those kind of sluts who get laid everywhere. I'm sorry, this kinda a sensitive topic. Don't leave those hateful comments on me. Please.

So yep, now back to the topic.
People said is a shame of still being a virgin is because their first time was a nightmare. And they gave it to the wrong person maybe? That's why they jealous with those virgin. I don't know.

For guys, yes. They said it's a shame. But for girls, no. This kind of girl is expensive. But you see, the world changed. Even they said they don't care anymore. How pathetic :(

Lot of guys laugh at me, booo at me because of this. They said: Gosh, dafuq? Are you serious? You so conservative. Don't lie to me please.  If you don't do it now, you gonna wait til you die? When you old?
Yes, laugh please, just laugh. Bet those guys love to get a slut wife maybe?

Seriously I don't know. Everyone has their own perceptions. Think outside the box. See it in every different angels. Let's see.

1) A conservative girl's thinking: 
Nah, if you wanna have sex, wait til we get married okay babe? If you love me, you wouldn't mind to wait though. This is the only priceless thing I can keep for my future husband. My first time is so important, if I gave to the wrong person, I will regret for the rest of my life. And also I need to set a date for my first time too lol. It's so important! Well, if I gave to the guy I love so much but end up breaking up, it will be a wrong investment. Sooo, I'll keep it till I can see future with the man I'm with now!
This is how a conservative girl thoughts.

2) Having a stable relationship girl's thinking:
I love my bf. We've been in a relationship for few years. I gave him my first time. He said we will love me forever and take good care of me. So now, we have sex few times per month. And I'm glad he's the one.
*If accident happens, is either you abort the child or you get married*
I don't know. Like one of my friend said: Well, since we're in relationship, this should be include in our daily life. And I tell you what, you got no idea how many benefits we will get by having sex. Then she started with all her benefits like: you can sleep well after that, reduce stress, stay youthful, increase confident?, more prettier, healthier, good for blood circulation, burn fats.. etc etc. Well, the only disadvantage will be: PREGNANT. That's the nightmare start for you.

3) Party Girl
This is guys' favorite girls. As you can see, party girl. They have sex with everyone. I bet their first time was sucks and a nightmare. That's why they're doing this to satisfy themselves. I don't know. And they think that: Life is short, we must have fun! No point being so out-dated like those nerd girls! Then, they end up everyday waking up with a different guys sleeping beside who she has no idea who the hell is that! Hey, fun?
If you're free to read this blog, type genital herpes, chancroid on google images and see what the hell is that. I dare you. If you get this disease, congratulation. No more sex for you! HIV is common disease so you basically know it.

4) Got raped and.. 
Gosh I feel pathetic for this kind of girls. Accident means they get raped, forced or whatever. So their first time is such a nightmare. They got no choice. They have to carry this for the rest of their life. But if they found a guy who really love them and don't care about that. Problem solved. But they might afraid of sex next time. Afraid of guys touching them, or whatever it is. Guy, you need time to cure her if you really love her.

5) Fashion, trend girls
So they think if you never have sex before, you're so freaking out-dated. What the hell wrong with you? All of us already tried it. Why the hell you still keeping it? Yep, they think it's proud to show off that they lost their virginity. True, some girls think it's proud. It's a prove that they already grown up. Apply on all those little girls out there who are still under-age.

6) Use sex to keep their men
So, he's asking for break up because I didn't want to have sex with him. He said I don't love him. What should I do what should I do? Hells yea, so she gave him her first time. And after the first time, he keeps asking for more and more. Girl, do you think this is love? If he can't wait, so why the hell you swap with your first time to keep him? This is a no-profit business. Guess what? When you get pregnant, he will throw you with money and ask you to leave. He won't be responsible. This kind of man never use their brain to think. They use their d... to think. And even after you break up, sometime, he might call you and meet you up and ask for sex again and again. Yep, and you think he's still loving you. And you think this is the best way for you to keep him for not leaving. NOO, WAKE UP PLEASE.

So, it's not a shame of being a virgin though. Shame is how those people laugh at you. Those people should be shame. They don't deserve a good girl like us rightttt?

Well, I randomly ask a question on my another social network. The question is: If your gf doesn't want to have sex with you, will you have sex with another girls to fulfil your satisfaction but without her knowledge?
The answer I get was:
-NOOO! I will wait till she gets ready (Wooots what a gentleman who loves his gf)
-Hey that's cheating! (Whoa, good guy too)
-I wouldn't mind tho, but if it's gonna takes long time, I will think of breaking up. (Nawwww =/)
-Absolutely NO! If he loves you, he wouldn't do that. (nice :D )
-Nope, I wont hurt her :) (GREAT!!)

See, guys are not that bad. They can wait for you if they really love you. But if they don't, hmmm. It means you guys need to sit back and discuss about it.

Honestly, if you're not ready, don't do it. Even if you're doing it, make sure everything is safe. That's the main point. If you're pregnant, is not about you and him. Is about your family and his family and also the innocent baby. Think twice babes!

But oh well. If you're still virgin just keep virgin till you really stable or maybe married. And if you're not, make sure you are happy now. Past is already past.

Oh wait, before I end this, this is actually about people at our age. Don't go and ask your mother:  Ma, are you still virgin?

National Service?

Recently saw lots of teens keep posting about national service. They got it or not. Oh well, everyone is like: Dafuq? I'm so unlucky!! Why the hell they choose me!!

Seriously I have the same thought with you when I first knew this. Like: Stupid government, stupid plkn, stupid stupid waste my time! But after I went, I changed my mind.

Let me tell you fun parts and the bad parts of it  :)

First of all, you should know we need to wake up early in the morning everyday! Except of weekends. But unlike muslim, they need to wake up more earlier than the non muslim. So non muslim like us, sleep til 6am something, wake up, wash their faces and walk to the field.

Non of our friends like to wake up so early. Everytime when we wake up, we scold lots of bad words. "WTF, everyday not enough sleep nia! So early wake up for what" At the end, we need to get up and walk like a zombie to the field. You can't imagine the level of sleepy-ness. Is so damn freaking sleepy. We could fall asleep even when we standing. Trust me. That's what we did.

When we get to the field, oh well, a field without grass. And the floor is so hard. But while waiting the muslim to done their pray, we actually sleep on the floor and continue our dreams even only few minutes. But the best part is, we lay on the floor, and look to the sky together with all our friends. That feelings was the best. I remember how the sky used to be full of stars and sometime we could see shooting stars :) Best part. Then we fall asleep.

And only a few minutes on the hardest floor ever in the world, we are force to wake up. And sing all the national songs. Seriously, we standing there without singing and sleeping. You seriously cant believe how sleepy we are. Done those singing, Then start our exercise. This is the part can make us more energize. Running the whole field. Jump here jump there, do this do that. Morning exercise every morning!

Done with that, BAHAHAHAHA, best part of it. Choose which company start to walk back to canteen and have breakfast. We can't run, cant walk but to march like a boss back to canteen. Or maybe we need to sing our company song. A song that we need to create by ourself and sing it for the rest of the 3 months.

Then breakfast time! Hells ya, sometime foods are not delicious but we still need to eat it. No choice. And, we need to line up. Gosh, can't imagine. Youre so hungry and yet you need to wait.

Done eating, time to go back and get changed again. Next activity: YES, WE HAVING CLASS. A really bored class but we learned lots of things. Like moral stuffs, some unbelievable knowledge and whatsoever.

Well, to me. When we first get to the class, the first thing to do is: Wow, got lengzai mou?! On the first day, yes, I saw a lengzai *Hope he's not reading this!* He actually passed me a note and ask for my phone number. I actually didn't give a damn shit and ask him to go away because I thought he is asking for a fatty beside him. Oh Mai Gawt, I didn't know this until the last day I leave the camp. He told me it's his first time to ask for girl's number and I rejected like a boss.  I felt so sorry! Because in the class for the whole 3 months, he's the one I actually keep looking. And I ruined my first impression on the first day.

Yea, we have this kind of class every morning. And a short break for tea time, then continue class until 12.30pm. Freaking tired and sleepy.

Then yes, lunch time. And after that, go back and sleep!! But need to get prepare and wear the full uniform if we have activity. We don't get much time to sleep even we go back to room. Sometime need to wash our clothes. Then sleep for awhile and get up to get prepared. If we're late, we're in fucking trouble!

For all the girls in my room, we actually kinda racist. I mean, I dont mean we hate malays or indians in our room. But indian stick with indian, chinese stick with chinese, and malay stick with malay. On the first day when I know those girls, you can't believe. We felt like we knew each other for few years. Because we're suffering together and go through everything together. We cry, laugh, eat in the rooms, chitchat, gossip, sleep, shower, all together. That's why.

And yep, 2.30pm need to meet up and start activity. There's lots of activities. If you're kind of outdoor person like me, I'm sure you will enjoy! Like going to the jungle, do those extreme activities and so much more! I'll let you go explore. It's fun! Seriously.

And sometime, we don't have to do those extreme. We'll just do some exercise and those sweating stuff. Then we will have short break, tea time! Yes!! Eat!

After that, 5.30pm. It's free time. You can jog, play basketball, football. Just don't sit there and chat. If not youre in trouble again. Til 6.30pm, yes, dinner time! Not delicious,wuekkkk! We usually don't take dinner and eat noodles in room. And yes, we get scold for eating too much of noodles. Lots of people faint the next day because not enough energy. Then, our camp banned noodles. No more noodles allowed!! Sad case~ And we only brought biscuits to eat next time.

Yes, this time. We run back like a kids, shower like a boss! The sweat body is soooo smelly. The best part of it, shower at night time. Usually when we shower in the afternoon, the time when you get out from toilet, you start sweating again. And you gonna scream FUCK THIS WEATHER! So night time, we shower, eat and then sleep again. Even for a few minutes we have. Sorry to say that, the next thing is, we have activities for you again. Is either those lousy speech, lousy movie to show or whatever. And if we fall asleep, you're in trouble again. Or sometime we have class. Religion class.

Then 10.30pm. Check check. Who's not there who's there. Report and go back sleep! This is the best part. Everyone run to their room, brush teeth and dead. My friends more worst, they change cloth for tomorrow morning and straight away fall asleep on their bed. Yep, 11.30pm, all the light must close and everyone must be on their bed. If they found out you're not there, you're in trouble again.

Sometime, something, scary might happen at night. But most of us slept like a dead body. Like some of our malay friends eating at night and get caught, our leader ask them to jump like a duck. But none of us actually heard that noise. Seriously, dead ! Sleep like a dead body.

Monday to Friday is almost the same. 1 day eat 6 times. Lots of activities every different days. I kinda excited and enjoyed. Seriously :D

Weekend, don't need to wake up so early. But at least 9 something? Get up and collect mobile phone day! Yes, then we can start sms and start calling the whole world lol (:

Yep, usually need to be careful because someone might steal your phone.But oh well, not happening in our room. Good room mate we had.

Sunday, family can come to visit us! Oh yea, hello parents. See some kids start crying when they see their parents. And yea, some need to work on that day. I mean guide parents to go there, stand at the front door to greet. Is fun. And night, religion class. Buddist go there, muslim go there, christian go there. And so on so on. It's fun part for me, because usually when we go temple, they provided us foods and yes!! Chinese foods!! Been eating malay foods for the past 5 days! Can you imagineeeeeee??

Duh, and when it's last month, more and more exciting games for us. Overnight in the jungle, shower and swim at the river, search for the foods in the jungle, build camp by ourself, sleep in there and donate blood to mosquitoes, climb so far, walk into the jungle at night, BBQ and make fire by our own, sit together and eat, woke up in the middle of night to work, I mean patrol. Check and see who's gone, ask them go back to sleep if saw them walking around. It's so memorable. Because we live in a very hard life. MAD!! Even those girly princess already get used to this life.

Next day, burn our camp! LOL, jk. Oh well, before we go to the jungle, we actually carry a very big bag and climb. Suffering. the boots is so heavy, the uniform is so thick, the sweat is so yieeew, the mosquitoes are so annoying. Everything seem to be so bad!

Yet is so enjoyed.

And best part, able to touch the gun and shoot! Hells yea babe! Woooots,cant believe I can play the gun. They call it m16? Seriously? Don't seem like it is. And lay on the ground, with the hot sun. Fuck! Steam

Friends all went back to kl and never come back to camp. So the room became quiet. And I told my dad to bring my electric keyboard so I can kill my time in room. Oh yea!! But few weeks later, they give a warning that they will took all our music instrument because it's noisy. I was like, WTF? I only touch it when no one is around. How the hell is noisy? Soooo, the warning is actually to those guys who play guitar in the middle of night. Brainless. lol, lucky I'm the only one who brought the keyboard and they didn't take my keyboard away. If not, I got nothing to do in the room anymore.

Friend from other room wanna borrow my keyboard to perform in the last night. I wanna reject but, everyone is begging me. If I say no, they gonna call me stingy for the rest of the day we left there =|

So the last night, I need to carry my keyboard to set up. And accidentally, I was randomly making noise, playing randomly notes while they adjusting the sound. Then I get scold. That fellow in charge told me to play something. Goshhhh, seriously I'm not good in playing it. My hands was shaking on the stage. I simply play a song which I familiar with and wow, everyone is clapping their hands under the stage when I finished the whole song. Luckyyyyy. *oppps, showing off d lol*

And the last day last night, basically most of my friends already ran away from camp because they can't stand it anymore. They gave a reason that they need to start study. But all of them actually fail on their spm. But I decided to stay longer even though I'm smart ass among them. *Shit, they gonna kill me if they see this!* LOL, and I stayed til the last night, I don't regret. Because yea, finally.

The 3 months of suffering finally done. And we got the certificate. And thanks god. I'm tough enough to stay till the last day! Nothing gonna push me down anymore! LOL

When we came out and get back to our own house, I can't get used to it. I kinda missed the life in there. So discipline. Good bye camp!

Parents Never Understand Us

Well, being tired with your parents keep nagging on whatever you do? Scolding and complaining on whatever you did. Seriously, YES I AM. I know they are being so concern and worry about us all the time. But please, listen to me before you start your speech okay? 

Am I really that bad in your eyes now? Honestly??

(1) Hanging out there late.
Okay, I know all the parents gonna be freaking worried when their kids are still hanging around in the city late night. Yes, I understand your feelings. I do. But yo, I'm out there YAM CHA. Not like how you think: dance in the club, drink like a boss and drunk like a dead meat. Seriously, that's not my activity.

(2) Facing the laptop too long
Yo, seriously. Do you want me to face toilet bowl all day long? What do you expect me to do when I'm home? Clean the toilet, wash the clothes, sweep the floor, water the flower, feed those zombie dogs? Okay, let's say I'm done with all that. Let's say I did what you told me to. But I know, you only have a perception that: WHAT SHE KNOWS IS FACING THE LAPTOP. And she doesn't even realize when I'm watering the plants. That's why.

(3) Stop staying in the room !
I'll tell you what? When I'm not hanging out like whole week whole month, staying in the house doing nothing. I actually got scold that: WHY THE HELL YOU KEEP STAYING AT HOME LIKE A RETIRE GRANDMA? Hello, what do you expect me to do? When I hang out, you worried like an ant. When I'm not, you saying me like a grandma?

(4) Why don't you love yourself?
Wow, seriously, this is pissed me off ! You said I don't love myself? I don't take good care of myself now? Hello, am I one of those kids who trying to commit suicide when I'm sad? Am I? Am I one of those teenagers who smoke weeds? Take drugs? Drink alcohol like a boss? Am I? You seriously no idea how much I love myself and I'm not gonna shame you! Are you blind?

(5) Don't get pregnant before married !
Oh well, this is what they worrying the most ! And seriously, do you know me well? Honestly, I NEVER HAD SEX BEFORE. Trust me or not, I don't care. But just to let you guys know, don't worry. You got no idea how much I love myself. And for those guys, FUCK AT YOUR OWN RISK. You got no idea what you gonna deal with when your sperm meet the egg! If you love her, respect her!

(6) Why don't you study?
Gosh, tell me the reason why you want me to study? To get good result and get a good job with high pay right? You know Bill Gates quote: I failed in some subjects in exam, but my friend passed in all. Now he is an engineer in Microsoft and I'm the owner of Microsoft. Seriously, I feel stupid when I study so hard to get all A's in my exam.

(7) Stop doing shit that wasting your time
Okay, for example: I love to play electric guitar. I play it everyday and finally I pissed you off because of the noise pollution that I made. You told me stop wasting time playing that shit and do something healthy. Like maybe go for rock climbing because it's your favourite. The point is when we're doing something we love to, it's not wasting time. When we're doing something we don't love, that's considering wasting time. WHY THE HELL YOU FORCING SOMETHING WE DON'T LIKE TO DO AND MAKE YOURSELF HAPPY? Is that what we should do to please you because you're the one who bring us to this world? If that so, OKAY, fine. I'll do whatever you want me to do.

(8) Don't use rude words when you talk to me
Wow, did you just say rude words? I thought I just heard you came out heaps of rude words when you're scolding me last night. Err, do you think you can convince me not to use rude words now? IF you want me to respect you, do you think you should respect me too? I don't beg for much, just a little of respect from you? You know how it feels when I scold you with bad words. And exactly how I feel when you pop out rude words to me.


Seriously, I hate you but I don't mean I don't love you. But I'm tired of being nice and yet what I get is all your dissatisfy. I tried so hard to be good.

At least
I don't go to club. I'm so so an anti clubber. I even hate my friends of going club.
I don't drink or consume alcohol. See, I know is bad to drink. That's why I'm not like them, drink every night and call that a relax day.
I don't smoke. You told me smoke is bad for health. See, I even scold my friends of being such a smokers.
I don't take drugs. If it's serious, I might die. I don't want to die before you guys man!
I study hard just because I don't want to fail any subjects. I even study harder just to get all A. What do you expect from me now?

If you gonna say I'm not good kid. Okay, I will learn from mistake and force myself to be a good kid. But hey, don't forget who bring us to this world, and who taught us what is life, and whatever it is. If we're not good enough, what about you?

The so called 'popular' girls

Okay, so this is just a short post !

Girls, you don't have to flirt around with every guys to make yourself well-known. Yea? You did that? Giving chances to every guys, giving them hopes and disappoint them like you don't give a shit. And tell them you're not ready for a relationship. and acting like innocent to make them won't hates you but to want you more. And that's it. You reached your goal. So every guys will love you more. And so, you think you're popular enough because you know lots of guys yea?

Okay, imagine that you're going to tesco. To buy something right? The reason people go to TESCO is to purchase some cheap things. So, look at the part which having sales. Lots of people is fighting to get the cheap products. And yes, you're the cheap things which has high demand. Oppps, don't pissed off first. If you're pissing off now, it means you feel like you're like one of those so called 'popular' girls.

So basically, girls don't have to show off to other people saying that: Wow, who the hell you think you are? You should know lots of guys are chasing after me. And you? Get lost before I start bark!

Same thing, tesco on sales. Cheap product=lots of people chasing after. The cheapest you are, the more people want it. Conclusion, I don't see this is a proud thing to show off tho. Are you? 

So yea, seriously. If you wanna be well-known. You don't have to be so slutty. You know? Because either male or female gonna hate you. Seriously!! Male and female wouldn't like this kind of fake slut flirty little girl.

I don't understand why every guy comes to you and you can just accept them as your bf. Oh no, seriously every guys? This is so sick !! I know you could them as your driver, to buy things you want and etc. Yea? You think this is fun?

I won't ask you to change because you will change when you started to think mature. And this is your playing period ?

Is like myvi car and Ferrari. Any of your dream luxury cars. Myvi, you can see it everywhere on the road. You might get crazy when you started to calculate how many Myvi cars passed by on this high way. Why Myvi car? Because it's cheap and affordable by everyone. And when I ask you to calculate the number of Ferrari passed by this high way. Probably like less than 10, 5, or even zero. Ferrari, everyone dreams to own it but it's too expensive. No way it can be so expensive. That's why. It's the same thing. You want to be a Ferrari or a Myvi car?

Myvi, the reason people buy it because it's cheap and they need a car. Same thing like people want you because you're chase-able and easily get it and also they need a gf. Ferrari, they want it but they know they can't have it. *Doesn't apply on those rich fellow who owned a Ferrari car here* Like a pretty girl who is really beautiful but they can't have it. Because you just can't.

Normally, those so called popular girls think they are pretty and that's why lots of guys are chasing after. Psst, you know what? Your so called pretty is consider nothing and it's normal everywhere. You know what I mean? It means, when you walk on the street. 10 out of 9 are pretty. It depends how they act. Slutty one? Nerd one? Shy one? Or a lansi one. So, don't think you're pretty and flirt with everyone.

A girl who I will admire is not those slutty one for sure, not so popular, not a smart ass but a girl who is pretty but will never act like: Duh bitch, I'm pretty. Stop looking at me. A girl I will admire is where she has lots of admires and she is beautiful and yet, she is so loyal to her bf. Like, her bf is everything for her. This is double thumbs up for her.

For those so called popular one, never loyal. Always create story and post status said I love you, I miss you and act innocent like dump by guys or whatsoever. Bitch please. And change bf always because always think that: I'm pretty, I deserve a better guy and so she dump the current bf. How long you think you can maintain this kind of lifestyle?

Guy, if you think you met this kind of girl. Is either you think you could change her mind and her life. Or you just get lost and admit you are one of her victim. Wake up !

Girl, myvi or ferrari ?

A post for my dad :)

If you click into my blog now, PLEASE, spend a few minutes to finish all. Or you just have to scroll down to read the last paragraph.

Well if you read my post before, you shoulda read one of my post for my dad for his birthday though. Hmm, I know he sometime will accidentally will click on my blog link and see what's that. I was surprised and I asked him: wow, you got see my blog meh? Him: yea, last time I clicked and saw those pictures. Is that you who wrote everything on that blog? Wow, so pro ! Then I was like: Err, normal la. Hahaha.

Okay so as you know, it's father's day yea? So again, this post is specially for him again. Duhh, I think my mum will get jealous if she saw this too cause I never write anything about her.

Let's start the story now.
My dad ah my dad. You wouldn't believe this is happening. Is because I myself don't believe it too. When I was in Australia, *Oh my holiday* and I got the news that, MY DAD IS IN ICU.

At first I was like: huh? ICU? what is that again? I didn't know it was that serious until my mum text to my aussie number and told me: We are going back to hometown to see your dad. Few hours later, she texts me again and said: He's coma now!

And I was still like: what is coma again?

At night, when I'm free. I started to realize it's not as simple as I thought. So, the problems occur now. Should I go back to Taiping now to see him? Or, just wait and see how. Then the devil and angel are fighting inside me. And I decided to stay ! See how evil I am? Always say how much I love him but when he is in trouble, I still enjoying the holiday like mada faka. Wuuu, I hate myself.

But deep inside me, I know what's my dad thinking. If he knows, he wouldn't let me come back earlier. But for me, I know he is tough enough. He will absolutely gonna wake up from coma.

This picture I posted on facebook is actually for him. But he never ever see this. 

Is already 3days, he is in coma. I just wanna say:

"Dad, please wake up. Stop sleeping anymore!! :'( "

Remember how he just learned how to use the video call in facebook. He was so excited for the first time. Keep asking me to video call with him. But I haven't set up the video call with him and I was gonna ignore him. But he is still like: why can't call you? and lots of things. So I throw away my lazyness and set it up. 

And it's so different feelings when you get to see him on the cam because we used to skype but only call without cam. This time is different. So we start our random topic and talk talk. 

When I was at Australia, he called me again. And I started to tell him everything. Like: see, this is heater. It blows hot air :p ! Then he was like: omggg, you don't know how hot it is in Malaysia now!! Then we LOL there. I told him so cold at night and need heater. 

Few days later, he called me again but I was watching naruto and didn't realized it. When I call back, no one answer. And the next day, the news he went into ICU broke my heart. I was soooo regret!! Why I never realized it! Fuck myself!! 

He is a marathon lover. He loves to jog. He doesn't smoke. Such a healthy fellow. That's why I can't believe it! How can he just faint while he is jogging and sent to the hospital. They told me his heart actually stopped for few minutes. Seriously?! Is this actually happen? 

He loves to jog and always go for the marathon. And all of us, brothers and mother bought a G-shock watch for him because he has waiting for it such a long time. When we bought it, he is so damn freaking excited. And I snap a picture for him and posted it on facebook to show him. He even video call me purposely just to want me to show him the watch. And keep saying, wahhh so beautiful.

Few weeks later, he is on the g-shock watch fever. He started to do research on it. And keep telling me, this watch is good, that watch is good. lol, then i just answered him: haiya, you should do the research earlier so I can get the one you like ma. We bought a watch that not really satisfy him. But still, he always wear it like it's his babe. 

So, like I expected. He woke up few days later! Wuhooooo! But not really in good condition. 

And here, I seriously wanna thanks to those friends who actually keep updating me about my dad. Duhh, even friends are much more clearer than me. What a failure I am. 

Before the day I coming back to Malaysia, I called him. I told him: Dad, I'm coming back tomorrow! He answered me: Why so fast come back?.. I was like: wow !? fast? But he is kinda blur. 

Now, he woke up and discharge from the hospital. But seriously, I missed lots of stories that happened. How they take shift to take care of dad in the hospital, what my dad said when he is in a really blurry situation, how they talk about the soul and all those ghost stories. I seriously missed it! I shoulda be there!

Yes, how I always say how much I love my dad, but when this shit happen, see what I'm doing? fail!! I wanna be part of it to help. Lucky those hospital fees shits are not expensive. But I know in the future, we gonna pay this and that and everything. I know my brothers and my mother is actually spending a lot for him.

虽然你是醒了，可是你可以再清醒点吗？

少了你，我就少了一个人可以诉苦，少了一个可以说心事的对象，少了一个我可以哭着打电话也不出声。最重要的，少了你，我还可以向谁撒娇？

I don't need those: stay tough ha liqii, ure dad gonna be fine and etc etc. Seriously, what you can do is, click on the nuffnang advertisement that you can see. It's already helping me. Yea? 

So I'm gonna do my part here for my dad. 'Dude, I love you man! You never know! :)'

And you, if you don't mind, just click on the nuffnang advertisement on top, bottom and side. It doesn't kill. I know you won't ask for my bank account and bank in me the money to help me. So, this is the only way you could help :) 

God bless you guys ! xoxo

How to travel alone safely?

Well, it's been a month since the last post. Think I should get my ass here to start another new post. I'm not lazy to post a new post but I got no idea to write what. What's actually interesting? Friends used to give me idea on writing about my own life, what did I do, where did I go all those kind of things. To be honest, I think those kind of shits kinda bored. Am I right? Who the hell cares what I did, where I went.

Now, I'm bored to death. So I have to force myself to write something since my friends keep asking me to update it. Duhhhh!

Err, I'm bored because I'm in Melbourne (not showing off okay?!). Shops and malls here closed at 5pm. So I got no place to hang around but to stay at home. A long long long night to spend with watching anime on laptop. I thought I'm on vacation? =/

Okay, back to the topic. I have lots of friends, they love travel. Seriously! We love travelling! Oh yea~ But sometime we can't get a good partners or group of friends. It's always tough to plan everything. Please everyone else in a group. That's why I choose to travel alone. You don't have to take care of your friend and the most important thing is your friend doesn't need to take care of you. Fair.

If you wanna travel, the first thing you must concern issssssssssssssssssssssss,
1) Book your flight ticket. Plan your own trip
-lol, this is the main thing to do. Know where you are going, know what you want. I know you have your dream place to go. So just book your flight ticket and get ready for it. It's your own trip, so plan whatever you wanna do. Eating icecream down the street half naked during winter?

2) Prepare everything that you need or maybe buy those stuffs over there.
-what you need? passport, visa if needed. And those shampoo, clothes..? But for me, camera is important! Bahahahaha! List it out if youre hardworking, or maybe you can memorize everything you need to bring.

3) Always keep in mind that, 'take care of yourself'
-When you're alone, nobody gonna look after you. So whatever you do, think twice. Is it safe? Should I do this? This is what I always concern.

4) Know about their culture
-If it's possible, you could do some research about the country. If you're so hardworking to? I didn't do any research but I ask people from that country. Hey, why the doors can't lock? Seriously, the door for the room, and the toilet door, cannot be locked here. -_-

5) Money $$$
-You don't have to be rich to travel. What you need to do is be aware of budget. Don't overspend. Don't get crazy when you see shopping mall and start buying stuffs. LOL, too much of sale now!! I can't stand it! Oh well, just estimate what you gonna spend like foods? transportation? If you're not lazy, maybe you can jot down whatever you spend. But if you're super rich, who the hell cares? Spend like a boss! This is why you're here!

Addition:
-Keep all your $$ and passport in a bag which you carry the most. Becareful. Don't  be the target of thieves.

6) How long you gonna stay here?
-Well, if the place you're going is near, maybe 4D3N? Like my friend said, if you're going to a really really far place, spend like 793742933 hours on the plane and you stay there for 3D2N? What can you do? Too tired to play around because you sit too much on plane. If it's far, shoulda stay there at least 7days. Play like a boss, walk like a boss, run like a boss! Nobody knows you.

7) Where to stay?
-On the street. Get a sleeping bag. Safe costs! Just kidding. If you're hardworking, start to do research on hotel. Or if you have friends or relatives, easy! Or maybe stick with the first plan, get a sleeping bag.

8) A trip for yourself
-If it's a trip for yourself to relax, choose a friend who needs to relax too. Like I said, if you're going with a bunch of friends, is either you need to please them, follow their rules, or they follow yours. I don't like travel with bunch of friends, it gets complicated. Like I wanna go beach, but those girls wanna do their shopping. Hello, those shopping malls are all the same. Even same brand. We still can see burberry, gucci, lv in every country. WHY THE HELL YOU WASTE YOUR TIME OVER HERE? That's what I dislike. So, choose a friend who has the same thinking with you :) But still, alone is better

9) Make friends !
-Oh, my favourite parts! Get new friends here. Hangout with them so you don't have to be alone. If you're my close friends, you shoulda know I'm super duper hyper like white guys! Can't really see much in my country. I keep smiling alone on the street because it's all my type. Duhh, I'm melting! opps, back to topic. Yea, just make new friends. That's it.

10) Plan a tour
-Sometime you don't know what's fun here and how to get to that place or whatever it is. Just go to travel agency in that country and get some 1 day trip. It's fun! :)

11) Get a sim card
-It's easier if you get a sim card. Cheaper to call back to your country. Give some of your friends know your  mobile number so they can get to you.

12) Build your confidence
-Aww I love this part. I watched a movie before. The girl said: Mum, bring me to travel. I wanna go travel. Then the mum touched her daughter's face and said: Girl, travel can be alone. You don't need people to bring you. YESSS, I agree with that mum. You're old enough to do so! Just go ahead :) Prove to people that: HEY I'm not a kid anymore!


That's it for now. Before I said goodbye, I seriously want to thanks to my parents.
My dad: He always there to support me no matter what Im doing.
When I tell him: Dad, I'm going to Australia next month. His respond: Again? With who? Me: Alone. Him: Oh. Then he change the topic like no big deal.
Few weeks later: eh, when you going? Remember get me souvenir.

My mum: She is scarier than my dad to be honest.
Me: Mum, I'm gonna tell you something but promise me you won't angry ok?
Mum: *Stare at me*
Me: Promise?
Mum: YES!
Me: *Stop breathing* I'm going to Aus next month!
Mum: WHAT? AGAIN? WITH WHO? WHY ALWAYS FLY HERE FLY THERE?
Me: ...
Then she will start her speech. But at the end, she will send me to the airport. Phewww~


Ending~
Thank you. I'm not a kid anymore but I'm still your daughter :)

Mature Guy VS Childish Boy

Seriously I wanna write about this post long time ago! And please, don't shoot me or give me those hateful comments if you dislike what I wrote here. Be mature.

To be honest, I have lots of guy friends who are younger than me. Seriously. Please, don't feel like I'm writing about you here. It's just something I see in common of all my friends are. Okayyyy~ Don't point your gun on my head and shoot me if you feel like you're the one who I'm saying here.

First, from what I see. Please, don't kill me. I need to keep repeat this. Not saying you here.

A childish boy will try to drive like a mad cow and to impress you or to scare you. And they will asked me: Are you scare? Basically, they expected me to say: "Oh no, please. I'm scare. Don't drive so fast!" Then they will have the satisfaction if I said that. But I usually ended up said: Err, did you actually drove fast? I don't feel the speed. Or I might said: What the hell? Why the hell you break? What the hell wrong with you? Get the hell out from the seat, let me drive!

A mature guy drives. Make sure you put on seat belt and sit quietly there. And the worst part is, they drive like a tortoise. Seriously. Like: No speeding. Follow the rules. Damn polite. Oh my Goddd. What the hell wrong with this man?! It's green light, move move move!!

A childish boy, for this, if your bf is a childish boy. Look. How they keep you as their barbie dolls. Hey, barbie doll. What did you do today? Who did you hang out with today? What you guys did? What did you buy? What did you eat? What you wearing today? etc etc. Lots of questions until they don't remember what they ask before. Seriously, I don't mind telling you all these stuffs. But don't you think you're much more scary than my parents now?

A mature man, your boyfriend. He will not throw all those questions to you and make you answer it. He knows you well. Knows what you usually do when you hang out with friends. He will only ask when he knew something is wrong. Wow, mind reader!!

A childish boy, ever seen a kid keep talking beside you. Making all those sound effects and make noises. Fiuuuu~ Broom~ Woooo~ Piang piang piang~ Aiyak! Yes, this is it! A childish boy, love to gossip and tell you something bad about the guy live next door, tell you the dog shits in front of his house yard, the granny who wash the toilet in mall. Dude, don't you feel tired of gossiping others? Seriously? Why the hell you telling me all those shits about others? To show me that you're good? Sorry, you make me think opposite now.

A mature man, tell you what's good what's bad. And those annoying bored but meaningful quotes so you can apply in your life. Girl, learn this, learn that. You shouldn't do this, it's gonna spoil your reputation or whatsoever !

A childish boy, pretend like a mature man saying: hey babe, marry me. You don't have to work to earn money. You just have to stay at home, cook, wash clothes and clean the house. Hello, why don't you just hire a maid to do all  that? If you think you really so capable and able to feed me, go ahead and say that. But seriously, look at the economy now. Are you sure you can do it? You don't even afford to get yourself a house yet.

A mature man, said the same thing. But prove that he is capable. *Hello, need to explain here. Not saying female only choose males who have houses and cars*. Just to tell you that, don't make those promises and give them hopes if you know you're not capable. This is what I meant. If you can't, just say it. We don't mind work and cook together. More sweet :)

A childish boy, when they fight in the public. They will ask you to go first or they will protect you when they fight. Seem so protective right? Feel sweet right? *OMG, he is so cool ! He can fight !!! Kung fu~ haiyak!! And he even protects me when he fighting and this causes the enemy hit him on his face*

A mature man will never fight in front of you and they gonna settle the problem by using their brain instead of fight to prove them you're stronger. Dude, seriously, we are human. Are you acting like an animal? Fight to get foods? *Again, I need to repeat this, if you feel angry of what I wrote, I apologize sincerely. But tell me, why are you angry? It's because you seem like one of them????*

A childish boy, laugh and scream in the public to attract attention! Do you have friends like this?! Omg, seriously I tell you what!! I feel damn shame when I'm standing beside. What the heaven wrong with this boy? Are you a monkey?

A mature man, you won't see his emotions. [Bored, am I talking to a wall?] You never catch him. [Is he actually laughing on my jokes?] They don't show much in the public. They respect you.

A childish boy loves to ask you bunch of questions and wish to get to know you. And when you reply him: dude, it's already showed. Why are you still asking me?! And he will answer you: I want you to tell me and the sentence will end up with love love love love love. 

A mature man won't ask you. He will try to observe you. [Yiewww~ sounds like a creepy man!]

A childish boy will ask you what to do when they facing a problem. God damn it babe, I shit on my pant! What should I do now? *Go wash your ass now idiot!* 

A mature man will solve his problem and wipe his ass by himself without letting you know and make you worried. 

A childish boy will buy those expensive and useless thingy. Or they prefer something nice in physically. err, expensive and useless thingy. Basically what I meant was, what they paying for the product is actually higher than the value and the benefits they get from the product. I'll give you an example: A product which has the same function with other brands. Dude, seriously same function same things. But the childish boy actually pay RM2k for that and we can actually get it in RM200. Big different right? So, conclusion. The childish boy: Cool ma, let people see what brand I use. Yeng bo?! [ Sei mei? Haven't start to earn money and spend money like a mad cow ] 

A mature boy, don't even know what the brand is. Only go for something he likes without caring so much. Like those elderly said: You don't have to buy something luxury to impress others, impress others with what you have inside you. Or another one, don't show off what you have, you are good as long as your wallet is fat enough. 

A childish boy, force you to listen the songs he likes. "Eh, this song nice. Bababadadadalolololdududu, you got no idea what the hell the song is actually creeping. Hello, your cd got problem??" And you gotta listen to the song for the whole journey in the car. 

A mature man, concern what you like and sometime listen to what he likes. He is happy when he sees you smile. He gives you opportunity to turn to another channel. Try to know what you like. 

A childish boy, playing with you, hold your hand, keep look at you when he is driving. Dafuq? I don't have insurance and I think he is probably selling it.

A mature man, pay attention in driving. In short, bored to sit beside lol ! [Oi, talk to me laaa~]

A childish boy requires you to make up and dress up pretty when hang out with him. So he can show off to others how pretty the girl he is dating with. *Wuhooo, this pretty girl is mine!!*

A mature man stops you from make up so much and dress like normal when hang out with him. Natural is good enough. What you have internally is eternal. [ I swear I will dump the guy who ask me to make up when hang out with him! lol ]

So, boys and mens. Which one are you falling now? 

Lastly, I'm gonna repeat this again and again. Im writing this not to point at you. Don't perasan ok!? 

That's it! Bye♥♥♥