明明就~

这次来个华语的吧！很多朋友都说，你干嘛每次都用英文的，我看不到一半就不看了。完全不知道你在说什么！其实有时候我也不知道我到底在说什么。哈哈

也没什么特别想写的。就最近都听华语歌。尤其是超爱周杰伦的那首“大笨钟”。我敢肯定我已经听了上千次，连朋友都想打我了。每次重复又重复的听同一首歌。我也是第一次，没有三分钟热度的喜欢一首歌。看来我要长大了！哈哈哈

其实骗你的，后来我爱上另一首歌。也是周杰伦，不过是明明就。这首歌，我也是听了又听听了又听。喜欢也是有原因的，不过不告诉你，我也知道你没兴趣知道 :D

没什么的，今天就这样好了。

周杰伦-明明就 (歌词)
糖果罐里好多颜色　微笑却不甜了
你的某些快乐　在没有我的时刻
中古世纪的城市里　我想就走到这
海鸥不再眷恋大海　可以飞更远

远方传来风笛　我只在意有你的消息
城堡为爱守着秘密　而我为你守着回忆

明明就不习惯牵手　为何却主动把手勾
你的心事太多　我不会戳破
明明就他比较温柔　也许他能给你更多
不用抉择　我会自动变朋友

啊，朋友一直要我唱歌。看来要献丑了 :( 

bye bye~

Future

I always thought of update something on my blog but i always no idea what to write about. Sometime, I have some ideas during the night which means in the middle of night. And it's impossible for me to crawl out of bed, turn on my laptop and write it. I'm a lazy bum. So I ended up wait til the next day but I don't remember what I'm about to write it. Gosh. Even if I jot it down on my phone, I got no idea what does it all about. T.T

Do you ever have a feelings, in the middle of night when everyone is sleeping, and your mind still operating? You think about everything, everything that pop out in your mind. Your relationship, your partner, your family, your friends, your jobs, your education and also your future. You are tired, you want to sleep so much but you just cant.

Then here come all your random thinking. Ever think about your future? What you gonna study? What you wanna be? What you gonna work as? Hows your parents and your siblings gonna be? Who you gonna married to? Your friends? What are they doing after 10 years?

Everyone of us ever come to a moment where you gonna choose what you gonna study. I mean those who continue their study. At this time, they are already cracking their head off. Thinking what they wanna be in the future and what they gonna work as. So they choose the field that they want. And some, they let the decision to their family and end up they are not happy. And those who graduate from their field are rarely work as what they want to be like last time. It's all ruined the fuck up. Sometime, the world kinda force to be what you don't wan to be and you're so weak not to do it.

At the end, you're still cracking your head thinking what course you wanna go for and you ended up insomnia.

Let's just talk about job. Most of the people are working, either working for a company or they are running a company, their own business. So you see, they spend most of their time working. When you ask them go for travel, they will answer you:"Cannot ah, where got time?" They got everything tied up and they can't do anything. Even the one who own a business or running a business, they seems have more time, but still they are too busy taking care their business. So, what is the purpose we are born in this world? Work and get money for a better life? How do you define your 'better'?

Some people work so much, earn lots of money but they never happy. They feel stress all the time, easily pissed off, and never satisfy with whatever they have and they get sick easily too. But for some people, they never take jobs seriously. Sometime they work and sometime they don't. They have money problem but they don't care. They just want to enjoy life and they easily satisfy. They are happy all the time when you see them.

At this age, you always confuse what you want. And you don't know which is better for you. End up, you insomnia until morning.

Now is about your friends. I always saw lots of people at my age, posted about: I have lots of friends but they are not there when I need them. I feel so helpless. You see, at some point, you may be proud that you have lots of friends but trust me. They are just hi bye friends. They will look for you when they need help and say no when you need help. There's nothing to be sad of, at least you're in their mind when they need help. Trust me, you only need 1 or 2 best friend in your life. Whenever you need help, they will do whatever they could to help you. When you're sad to death, they will appear at your door and hug you tight. Aren't you suppose to be happy instead of staying sad because of the hi bye friends?

And now, stop thinking about your dog friends in the middle of night and emo yourself. Think about the good memories with your best friend.

Are you close with your parents? How much do you love them? Are you willing to shorten your life and make their life longer for 10 years? When we are kids, we hate them so much. Like they controlling us, come home before 11pm, do not buy those rubbish things and waste money, stop spending money like water, etc etc. But when you get to some age, you realize they are getting older, they getting weaker and so on. At the time, you gonna cry saying time please go slower, I don't want them to get old.

Don't be insomnia thinking and wishing the time could go any slow, be good to them start from now. Call them and tell them you're good at the place you're at. Always check on them like how they check for you when you're a kid. They are happy with that.

Relationship is the toughest shit ever you could ever go through it. I don't really believe in forever love even they do exists. I got brainwash when I was a kid, they told me it's useless to get married. You should go work and live by your own. And so, I don't really care about relationship, I do have bfs before, and they will never go long.

I have a nightmare before, I dream that I fall in love with a guy. Well, it should be a good dream right? But I fall in love with a guy after I married. And this turn the fucked up. I woke up and thinking, what should I do? Why can't I be loyal to someone? Because I'm too afraid to be serious and I'm too afraid to lose someone so it's impossible for me to commit to someone. Friends around me, in relationship for 10 years and broke up for some reason. Gosh, wasted 10 years time for a guy and now back to the origin point. I went to a temple before and my mum force me to try ask about my future. And he told me I'm not suitable to get married because my life will turn worst compare to before. I know it will be. It's up to you to believe it or not. I'm whatever but this make me an excuse to keep playing all the time. Not to get too serious in a relationship.

End up I'm forever alone.

This is exactly what your mind is all about when you're insomnia. You can think about your future, but you don't have to. It happens so soon enough. Don't crack your head up.

Friends keep asking me to update blog, when I ask what about it? He said: well, something about scolding people lah. You always scold people. Then I realized, when you started to work, you shouldn't scold others. Because they are not your family. You should just tell them in a nice way. And so, I diam d.

That's it. I know it's bored. I'm bored and tired of thinking about future too. Let's just be spontaneous.