National Service?

Recently saw lots of teens keep posting about national service. They got it or not. Oh well, everyone is like: Dafuq? I'm so unlucky!! Why the hell they choose me!!

Seriously I have the same thought with you when I first knew this. Like: Stupid government, stupid plkn, stupid stupid waste my time! But after I went, I changed my mind.

Let me tell you fun parts and the bad parts of it  :)

First of all, you should know we need to wake up early in the morning everyday! Except of weekends. But unlike muslim, they need to wake up more earlier than the non muslim. So non muslim like us, sleep til 6am something, wake up, wash their faces and walk to the field.

Non of our friends like to wake up so early. Everytime when we wake up, we scold lots of bad words. "WTF, everyday not enough sleep nia! So early wake up for what" At the end, we need to get up and walk like a zombie to the field. You can't imagine the level of sleepy-ness. Is so damn freaking sleepy. We could fall asleep even when we standing. Trust me. That's what we did.

When we get to the field, oh well, a field without grass. And the floor is so hard. But while waiting the muslim to done their pray, we actually sleep on the floor and continue our dreams even only few minutes. But the best part is, we lay on the floor, and look to the sky together with all our friends. That feelings was the best. I remember how the sky used to be full of stars and sometime we could see shooting stars :) Best part. Then we fall asleep.

And only a few minutes on the hardest floor ever in the world, we are force to wake up. And sing all the national songs. Seriously, we standing there without singing and sleeping. You seriously cant believe how sleepy we are. Done those singing, Then start our exercise. This is the part can make us more energize. Running the whole field. Jump here jump there, do this do that. Morning exercise every morning!

Done with that, BAHAHAHAHA, best part of it. Choose which company start to walk back to canteen and have breakfast. We can't run, cant walk but to march like a boss back to canteen. Or maybe we need to sing our company song. A song that we need to create by ourself and sing it for the rest of the 3 months.

Then breakfast time! Hells ya, sometime foods are not delicious but we still need to eat it. No choice. And, we need to line up. Gosh, can't imagine. Youre so hungry and yet you need to wait.

Done eating, time to go back and get changed again. Next activity: YES, WE HAVING CLASS. A really bored class but we learned lots of things. Like moral stuffs, some unbelievable knowledge and whatsoever.

Well, to me. When we first get to the class, the first thing to do is: Wow, got lengzai mou?! On the first day, yes, I saw a lengzai *Hope he's not reading this!* He actually passed me a note and ask for my phone number. I actually didn't give a damn shit and ask him to go away because I thought he is asking for a fatty beside him. Oh Mai Gawt, I didn't know this until the last day I leave the camp. He told me it's his first time to ask for girl's number and I rejected like a boss.  I felt so sorry! Because in the class for the whole 3 months, he's the one I actually keep looking. And I ruined my first impression on the first day.

Yea, we have this kind of class every morning. And a short break for tea time, then continue class until 12.30pm. Freaking tired and sleepy.

Then yes, lunch time. And after that, go back and sleep!! But need to get prepare and wear the full uniform if we have activity. We don't get much time to sleep even we go back to room. Sometime need to wash our clothes. Then sleep for awhile and get up to get prepared. If we're late, we're in fucking trouble!

For all the girls in my room, we actually kinda racist. I mean, I dont mean we hate malays or indians in our room. But indian stick with indian, chinese stick with chinese, and malay stick with malay. On the first day when I know those girls, you can't believe. We felt like we knew each other for few years. Because we're suffering together and go through everything together. We cry, laugh, eat in the rooms, chitchat, gossip, sleep, shower, all together. That's why.

And yep, 2.30pm need to meet up and start activity. There's lots of activities. If you're kind of outdoor person like me, I'm sure you will enjoy! Like going to the jungle, do those extreme activities and so much more! I'll let you go explore. It's fun! Seriously.

And sometime, we don't have to do those extreme. We'll just do some exercise and those sweating stuff. Then we will have short break, tea time! Yes!! Eat!

After that, 5.30pm. It's free time. You can jog, play basketball, football. Just don't sit there and chat. If not youre in trouble again. Til 6.30pm, yes, dinner time! Not delicious,wuekkkk! We usually don't take dinner and eat noodles in room. And yes, we get scold for eating too much of noodles. Lots of people faint the next day because not enough energy. Then, our camp banned noodles. No more noodles allowed!! Sad case~ And we only brought biscuits to eat next time.

Yes, this time. We run back like a kids, shower like a boss! The sweat body is soooo smelly. The best part of it, shower at night time. Usually when we shower in the afternoon, the time when you get out from toilet, you start sweating again. And you gonna scream FUCK THIS WEATHER! So night time, we shower, eat and then sleep again. Even for a few minutes we have. Sorry to say that, the next thing is, we have activities for you again. Is either those lousy speech, lousy movie to show or whatever. And if we fall asleep, you're in trouble again. Or sometime we have class. Religion class.

Then 10.30pm. Check check. Who's not there who's there. Report and go back sleep! This is the best part. Everyone run to their room, brush teeth and dead. My friends more worst, they change cloth for tomorrow morning and straight away fall asleep on their bed. Yep, 11.30pm, all the light must close and everyone must be on their bed. If they found out you're not there, you're in trouble again.

Sometime, something, scary might happen at night. But most of us slept like a dead body. Like some of our malay friends eating at night and get caught, our leader ask them to jump like a duck. But none of us actually heard that noise. Seriously, dead ! Sleep like a dead body.

Monday to Friday is almost the same. 1 day eat 6 times. Lots of activities every different days. I kinda excited and enjoyed. Seriously :D

Weekend, don't need to wake up so early. But at least 9 something? Get up and collect mobile phone day! Yes, then we can start sms and start calling the whole world lol (:

Yep, usually need to be careful because someone might steal your phone.But oh well, not happening in our room. Good room mate we had.

Sunday, family can come to visit us! Oh yea, hello parents. See some kids start crying when they see their parents. And yea, some need to work on that day. I mean guide parents to go there, stand at the front door to greet. Is fun. And night, religion class. Buddist go there, muslim go there, christian go there. And so on so on. It's fun part for me, because usually when we go temple, they provided us foods and yes!! Chinese foods!! Been eating malay foods for the past 5 days! Can you imagineeeeeee??

Duh, and when it's last month, more and more exciting games for us. Overnight in the jungle, shower and swim at the river, search for the foods in the jungle, build camp by ourself, sleep in there and donate blood to mosquitoes, climb so far, walk into the jungle at night, BBQ and make fire by our own, sit together and eat, woke up in the middle of night to work, I mean patrol. Check and see who's gone, ask them go back to sleep if saw them walking around. It's so memorable. Because we live in a very hard life. MAD!! Even those girly princess already get used to this life.

Next day, burn our camp! LOL, jk. Oh well, before we go to the jungle, we actually carry a very big bag and climb. Suffering. the boots is so heavy, the uniform is so thick, the sweat is so yieeew, the mosquitoes are so annoying. Everything seem to be so bad!

Yet is so enjoyed.

And best part, able to touch the gun and shoot! Hells yea babe! Woooots,cant believe I can play the gun. They call it m16? Seriously? Don't seem like it is. And lay on the ground, with the hot sun. Fuck! Steam

Friends all went back to kl and never come back to camp. So the room became quiet. And I told my dad to bring my electric keyboard so I can kill my time in room. Oh yea!! But few weeks later, they give a warning that they will took all our music instrument because it's noisy. I was like, WTF? I only touch it when no one is around. How the hell is noisy? Soooo, the warning is actually to those guys who play guitar in the middle of night. Brainless. lol, lucky I'm the only one who brought the keyboard and they didn't take my keyboard away. If not, I got nothing to do in the room anymore.

Friend from other room wanna borrow my keyboard to perform in the last night. I wanna reject but, everyone is begging me. If I say no, they gonna call me stingy for the rest of the day we left there =|

So the last night, I need to carry my keyboard to set up. And accidentally, I was randomly making noise, playing randomly notes while they adjusting the sound. Then I get scold. That fellow in charge told me to play something. Goshhhh, seriously I'm not good in playing it. My hands was shaking on the stage. I simply play a song which I familiar with and wow, everyone is clapping their hands under the stage when I finished the whole song. Luckyyyyy. *oppps, showing off d lol*

And the last day last night, basically most of my friends already ran away from camp because they can't stand it anymore. They gave a reason that they need to start study. But all of them actually fail on their spm. But I decided to stay longer even though I'm smart ass among them. *Shit, they gonna kill me if they see this!* LOL, and I stayed til the last night, I don't regret. Because yea, finally.

The 3 months of suffering finally done. And we got the certificate. And thanks god. I'm tough enough to stay till the last day! Nothing gonna push me down anymore! LOL

When we came out and get back to our own house, I can't get used to it. I kinda missed the life in there. So discipline. Good bye camp!

Parents Never Understand Us

Well, being tired with your parents keep nagging on whatever you do? Scolding and complaining on whatever you did. Seriously, YES I AM. I know they are being so concern and worry about us all the time. But please, listen to me before you start your speech okay? 

Am I really that bad in your eyes now? Honestly??

(1) Hanging out there late.
Okay, I know all the parents gonna be freaking worried when their kids are still hanging around in the city late night. Yes, I understand your feelings. I do. But yo, I'm out there YAM CHA. Not like how you think: dance in the club, drink like a boss and drunk like a dead meat. Seriously, that's not my activity.

(2) Facing the laptop too long
Yo, seriously. Do you want me to face toilet bowl all day long? What do you expect me to do when I'm home? Clean the toilet, wash the clothes, sweep the floor, water the flower, feed those zombie dogs? Okay, let's say I'm done with all that. Let's say I did what you told me to. But I know, you only have a perception that: WHAT SHE KNOWS IS FACING THE LAPTOP. And she doesn't even realize when I'm watering the plants. That's why.

(3) Stop staying in the room !
I'll tell you what? When I'm not hanging out like whole week whole month, staying in the house doing nothing. I actually got scold that: WHY THE HELL YOU KEEP STAYING AT HOME LIKE A RETIRE GRANDMA? Hello, what do you expect me to do? When I hang out, you worried like an ant. When I'm not, you saying me like a grandma?

(4) Why don't you love yourself?
Wow, seriously, this is pissed me off ! You said I don't love myself? I don't take good care of myself now? Hello, am I one of those kids who trying to commit suicide when I'm sad? Am I? Am I one of those teenagers who smoke weeds? Take drugs? Drink alcohol like a boss? Am I? You seriously no idea how much I love myself and I'm not gonna shame you! Are you blind?

(5) Don't get pregnant before married !
Oh well, this is what they worrying the most ! And seriously, do you know me well? Honestly, I NEVER HAD SEX BEFORE. Trust me or not, I don't care. But just to let you guys know, don't worry. You got no idea how much I love myself. And for those guys, FUCK AT YOUR OWN RISK. You got no idea what you gonna deal with when your sperm meet the egg! If you love her, respect her!

(6) Why don't you study?
Gosh, tell me the reason why you want me to study? To get good result and get a good job with high pay right? You know Bill Gates quote: I failed in some subjects in exam, but my friend passed in all. Now he is an engineer in Microsoft and I'm the owner of Microsoft. Seriously, I feel stupid when I study so hard to get all A's in my exam.

(7) Stop doing shit that wasting your time
Okay, for example: I love to play electric guitar. I play it everyday and finally I pissed you off because of the noise pollution that I made. You told me stop wasting time playing that shit and do something healthy. Like maybe go for rock climbing because it's your favourite. The point is when we're doing something we love to, it's not wasting time. When we're doing something we don't love, that's considering wasting time. WHY THE HELL YOU FORCING SOMETHING WE DON'T LIKE TO DO AND MAKE YOURSELF HAPPY? Is that what we should do to please you because you're the one who bring us to this world? If that so, OKAY, fine. I'll do whatever you want me to do.

(8) Don't use rude words when you talk to me
Wow, did you just say rude words? I thought I just heard you came out heaps of rude words when you're scolding me last night. Err, do you think you can convince me not to use rude words now? IF you want me to respect you, do you think you should respect me too? I don't beg for much, just a little of respect from you? You know how it feels when I scold you with bad words. And exactly how I feel when you pop out rude words to me.


Seriously, I hate you but I don't mean I don't love you. But I'm tired of being nice and yet what I get is all your dissatisfy. I tried so hard to be good.

At least
I don't go to club. I'm so so an anti clubber. I even hate my friends of going club.
I don't drink or consume alcohol. See, I know is bad to drink. That's why I'm not like them, drink every night and call that a relax day.
I don't smoke. You told me smoke is bad for health. See, I even scold my friends of being such a smokers.
I don't take drugs. If it's serious, I might die. I don't want to die before you guys man!
I study hard just because I don't want to fail any subjects. I even study harder just to get all A. What do you expect from me now?

If you gonna say I'm not good kid. Okay, I will learn from mistake and force myself to be a good kid. But hey, don't forget who bring us to this world, and who taught us what is life, and whatever it is. If we're not good enough, what about you?

The so called 'popular' girls

Okay, so this is just a short post !

Girls, you don't have to flirt around with every guys to make yourself well-known. Yea? You did that? Giving chances to every guys, giving them hopes and disappoint them like you don't give a shit. And tell them you're not ready for a relationship. and acting like innocent to make them won't hates you but to want you more. And that's it. You reached your goal. So every guys will love you more. And so, you think you're popular enough because you know lots of guys yea?

Okay, imagine that you're going to tesco. To buy something right? The reason people go to TESCO is to purchase some cheap things. So, look at the part which having sales. Lots of people is fighting to get the cheap products. And yes, you're the cheap things which has high demand. Oppps, don't pissed off first. If you're pissing off now, it means you feel like you're like one of those so called 'popular' girls.

So basically, girls don't have to show off to other people saying that: Wow, who the hell you think you are? You should know lots of guys are chasing after me. And you? Get lost before I start bark!

Same thing, tesco on sales. Cheap product=lots of people chasing after. The cheapest you are, the more people want it. Conclusion, I don't see this is a proud thing to show off tho. Are you? 

So yea, seriously. If you wanna be well-known. You don't have to be so slutty. You know? Because either male or female gonna hate you. Seriously!! Male and female wouldn't like this kind of fake slut flirty little girl.

I don't understand why every guy comes to you and you can just accept them as your bf. Oh no, seriously every guys? This is so sick !! I know you could them as your driver, to buy things you want and etc. Yea? You think this is fun?

I won't ask you to change because you will change when you started to think mature. And this is your playing period ?

Is like myvi car and Ferrari. Any of your dream luxury cars. Myvi, you can see it everywhere on the road. You might get crazy when you started to calculate how many Myvi cars passed by on this high way. Why Myvi car? Because it's cheap and affordable by everyone. And when I ask you to calculate the number of Ferrari passed by this high way. Probably like less than 10, 5, or even zero. Ferrari, everyone dreams to own it but it's too expensive. No way it can be so expensive. That's why. It's the same thing. You want to be a Ferrari or a Myvi car?

Myvi, the reason people buy it because it's cheap and they need a car. Same thing like people want you because you're chase-able and easily get it and also they need a gf. Ferrari, they want it but they know they can't have it. *Doesn't apply on those rich fellow who owned a Ferrari car here* Like a pretty girl who is really beautiful but they can't have it. Because you just can't.

Normally, those so called popular girls think they are pretty and that's why lots of guys are chasing after. Psst, you know what? Your so called pretty is consider nothing and it's normal everywhere. You know what I mean? It means, when you walk on the street. 10 out of 9 are pretty. It depends how they act. Slutty one? Nerd one? Shy one? Or a lansi one. So, don't think you're pretty and flirt with everyone.

A girl who I will admire is not those slutty one for sure, not so popular, not a smart ass but a girl who is pretty but will never act like: Duh bitch, I'm pretty. Stop looking at me. A girl I will admire is where she has lots of admires and she is beautiful and yet, she is so loyal to her bf. Like, her bf is everything for her. This is double thumbs up for her.

For those so called popular one, never loyal. Always create story and post status said I love you, I miss you and act innocent like dump by guys or whatsoever. Bitch please. And change bf always because always think that: I'm pretty, I deserve a better guy and so she dump the current bf. How long you think you can maintain this kind of lifestyle?

Guy, if you think you met this kind of girl. Is either you think you could change her mind and her life. Or you just get lost and admit you are one of her victim. Wake up !

Girl, myvi or ferrari ?

A post for my dad :)

If you click into my blog now, PLEASE, spend a few minutes to finish all. Or you just have to scroll down to read the last paragraph.

Well if you read my post before, you shoulda read one of my post for my dad for his birthday though. Hmm, I know he sometime will accidentally will click on my blog link and see what's that. I was surprised and I asked him: wow, you got see my blog meh? Him: yea, last time I clicked and saw those pictures. Is that you who wrote everything on that blog? Wow, so pro ! Then I was like: Err, normal la. Hahaha.

Okay so as you know, it's father's day yea? So again, this post is specially for him again. Duhh, I think my mum will get jealous if she saw this too cause I never write anything about her.

Let's start the story now.
My dad ah my dad. You wouldn't believe this is happening. Is because I myself don't believe it too. When I was in Australia, *Oh my holiday* and I got the news that, MY DAD IS IN ICU.

At first I was like: huh? ICU? what is that again? I didn't know it was that serious until my mum text to my aussie number and told me: We are going back to hometown to see your dad. Few hours later, she texts me again and said: He's coma now!

And I was still like: what is coma again?

At night, when I'm free. I started to realize it's not as simple as I thought. So, the problems occur now. Should I go back to Taiping now to see him? Or, just wait and see how. Then the devil and angel are fighting inside me. And I decided to stay ! See how evil I am? Always say how much I love him but when he is in trouble, I still enjoying the holiday like mada faka. Wuuu, I hate myself.

But deep inside me, I know what's my dad thinking. If he knows, he wouldn't let me come back earlier. But for me, I know he is tough enough. He will absolutely gonna wake up from coma.

This picture I posted on facebook is actually for him. But he never ever see this. 

Is already 3days, he is in coma. I just wanna say:

"Dad, please wake up. Stop sleeping anymore!! :'( "

Remember how he just learned how to use the video call in facebook. He was so excited for the first time. Keep asking me to video call with him. But I haven't set up the video call with him and I was gonna ignore him. But he is still like: why can't call you? and lots of things. So I throw away my lazyness and set it up. 

And it's so different feelings when you get to see him on the cam because we used to skype but only call without cam. This time is different. So we start our random topic and talk talk. 

When I was at Australia, he called me again. And I started to tell him everything. Like: see, this is heater. It blows hot air :p ! Then he was like: omggg, you don't know how hot it is in Malaysia now!! Then we LOL there. I told him so cold at night and need heater. 

Few days later, he called me again but I was watching naruto and didn't realized it. When I call back, no one answer. And the next day, the news he went into ICU broke my heart. I was soooo regret!! Why I never realized it! Fuck myself!! 

He is a marathon lover. He loves to jog. He doesn't smoke. Such a healthy fellow. That's why I can't believe it! How can he just faint while he is jogging and sent to the hospital. They told me his heart actually stopped for few minutes. Seriously?! Is this actually happen? 

He loves to jog and always go for the marathon. And all of us, brothers and mother bought a G-shock watch for him because he has waiting for it such a long time. When we bought it, he is so damn freaking excited. And I snap a picture for him and posted it on facebook to show him. He even video call me purposely just to want me to show him the watch. And keep saying, wahhh so beautiful.

Few weeks later, he is on the g-shock watch fever. He started to do research on it. And keep telling me, this watch is good, that watch is good. lol, then i just answered him: haiya, you should do the research earlier so I can get the one you like ma. We bought a watch that not really satisfy him. But still, he always wear it like it's his babe. 

So, like I expected. He woke up few days later! Wuhooooo! But not really in good condition. 

And here, I seriously wanna thanks to those friends who actually keep updating me about my dad. Duhh, even friends are much more clearer than me. What a failure I am. 

Before the day I coming back to Malaysia, I called him. I told him: Dad, I'm coming back tomorrow! He answered me: Why so fast come back?.. I was like: wow !? fast? But he is kinda blur. 

Now, he woke up and discharge from the hospital. But seriously, I missed lots of stories that happened. How they take shift to take care of dad in the hospital, what my dad said when he is in a really blurry situation, how they talk about the soul and all those ghost stories. I seriously missed it! I shoulda be there!

Yes, how I always say how much I love my dad, but when this shit happen, see what I'm doing? fail!! I wanna be part of it to help. Lucky those hospital fees shits are not expensive. But I know in the future, we gonna pay this and that and everything. I know my brothers and my mother is actually spending a lot for him.

虽然你是醒了，可是你可以再清醒点吗？

少了你，我就少了一个人可以诉苦，少了一个可以说心事的对象，少了一个我可以哭着打电话也不出声。最重要的，少了你，我还可以向谁撒娇？

I don't need those: stay tough ha liqii, ure dad gonna be fine and etc etc. Seriously, what you can do is, click on the nuffnang advertisement that you can see. It's already helping me. Yea? 

So I'm gonna do my part here for my dad. 'Dude, I love you man! You never know! :)'

And you, if you don't mind, just click on the nuffnang advertisement on top, bottom and side. It doesn't kill. I know you won't ask for my bank account and bank in me the money to help me. So, this is the only way you could help :) 

God bless you guys ! xoxo

How to travel alone safely?

Well, it's been a month since the last post. Think I should get my ass here to start another new post. I'm not lazy to post a new post but I got no idea to write what. What's actually interesting? Friends used to give me idea on writing about my own life, what did I do, where did I go all those kind of things. To be honest, I think those kind of shits kinda bored. Am I right? Who the hell cares what I did, where I went.

Now, I'm bored to death. So I have to force myself to write something since my friends keep asking me to update it. Duhhhh!

Err, I'm bored because I'm in Melbourne (not showing off okay?!). Shops and malls here closed at 5pm. So I got no place to hang around but to stay at home. A long long long night to spend with watching anime on laptop. I thought I'm on vacation? =/

Okay, back to the topic. I have lots of friends, they love travel. Seriously! We love travelling! Oh yea~ But sometime we can't get a good partners or group of friends. It's always tough to plan everything. Please everyone else in a group. That's why I choose to travel alone. You don't have to take care of your friend and the most important thing is your friend doesn't need to take care of you. Fair.

If you wanna travel, the first thing you must concern issssssssssssssssssssssss,
1) Book your flight ticket. Plan your own trip
-lol, this is the main thing to do. Know where you are going, know what you want. I know you have your dream place to go. So just book your flight ticket and get ready for it. It's your own trip, so plan whatever you wanna do. Eating icecream down the street half naked during winter?

2) Prepare everything that you need or maybe buy those stuffs over there.
-what you need? passport, visa if needed. And those shampoo, clothes..? But for me, camera is important! Bahahahaha! List it out if youre hardworking, or maybe you can memorize everything you need to bring.

3) Always keep in mind that, 'take care of yourself'
-When you're alone, nobody gonna look after you. So whatever you do, think twice. Is it safe? Should I do this? This is what I always concern.

4) Know about their culture
-If it's possible, you could do some research about the country. If you're so hardworking to? I didn't do any research but I ask people from that country. Hey, why the doors can't lock? Seriously, the door for the room, and the toilet door, cannot be locked here. -_-

5) Money $$$
-You don't have to be rich to travel. What you need to do is be aware of budget. Don't overspend. Don't get crazy when you see shopping mall and start buying stuffs. LOL, too much of sale now!! I can't stand it! Oh well, just estimate what you gonna spend like foods? transportation? If you're not lazy, maybe you can jot down whatever you spend. But if you're super rich, who the hell cares? Spend like a boss! This is why you're here!

Addition:
-Keep all your $$ and passport in a bag which you carry the most. Becareful. Don't  be the target of thieves.

6) How long you gonna stay here?
-Well, if the place you're going is near, maybe 4D3N? Like my friend said, if you're going to a really really far place, spend like 793742933 hours on the plane and you stay there for 3D2N? What can you do? Too tired to play around because you sit too much on plane. If it's far, shoulda stay there at least 7days. Play like a boss, walk like a boss, run like a boss! Nobody knows you.

7) Where to stay?
-On the street. Get a sleeping bag. Safe costs! Just kidding. If you're hardworking, start to do research on hotel. Or if you have friends or relatives, easy! Or maybe stick with the first plan, get a sleeping bag.

8) A trip for yourself
-If it's a trip for yourself to relax, choose a friend who needs to relax too. Like I said, if you're going with a bunch of friends, is either you need to please them, follow their rules, or they follow yours. I don't like travel with bunch of friends, it gets complicated. Like I wanna go beach, but those girls wanna do their shopping. Hello, those shopping malls are all the same. Even same brand. We still can see burberry, gucci, lv in every country. WHY THE HELL YOU WASTE YOUR TIME OVER HERE? That's what I dislike. So, choose a friend who has the same thinking with you :) But still, alone is better

9) Make friends !
-Oh, my favourite parts! Get new friends here. Hangout with them so you don't have to be alone. If you're my close friends, you shoulda know I'm super duper hyper like white guys! Can't really see much in my country. I keep smiling alone on the street because it's all my type. Duhh, I'm melting! opps, back to topic. Yea, just make new friends. That's it.

10) Plan a tour
-Sometime you don't know what's fun here and how to get to that place or whatever it is. Just go to travel agency in that country and get some 1 day trip. It's fun! :)

11) Get a sim card
-It's easier if you get a sim card. Cheaper to call back to your country. Give some of your friends know your  mobile number so they can get to you.

12) Build your confidence
-Aww I love this part. I watched a movie before. The girl said: Mum, bring me to travel. I wanna go travel. Then the mum touched her daughter's face and said: Girl, travel can be alone. You don't need people to bring you. YESSS, I agree with that mum. You're old enough to do so! Just go ahead :) Prove to people that: HEY I'm not a kid anymore!


That's it for now. Before I said goodbye, I seriously want to thanks to my parents.
My dad: He always there to support me no matter what Im doing.
When I tell him: Dad, I'm going to Australia next month. His respond: Again? With who? Me: Alone. Him: Oh. Then he change the topic like no big deal.
Few weeks later: eh, when you going? Remember get me souvenir.

My mum: She is scarier than my dad to be honest.
Me: Mum, I'm gonna tell you something but promise me you won't angry ok?
Mum: *Stare at me*
Me: Promise?
Mum: YES!
Me: *Stop breathing* I'm going to Aus next month!
Mum: WHAT? AGAIN? WITH WHO? WHY ALWAYS FLY HERE FLY THERE?
Me: ...
Then she will start her speech. But at the end, she will send me to the airport. Phewww~


Ending~
Thank you. I'm not a kid anymore but I'm still your daughter :)

Mature Guy VS Childish Boy

Seriously I wanna write about this post long time ago! And please, don't shoot me or give me those hateful comments if you dislike what I wrote here. Be mature.

To be honest, I have lots of guy friends who are younger than me. Seriously. Please, don't feel like I'm writing about you here. It's just something I see in common of all my friends are. Okayyyy~ Don't point your gun on my head and shoot me if you feel like you're the one who I'm saying here.

First, from what I see. Please, don't kill me. I need to keep repeat this. Not saying you here.

A childish boy will try to drive like a mad cow and to impress you or to scare you. And they will asked me: Are you scare? Basically, they expected me to say: "Oh no, please. I'm scare. Don't drive so fast!" Then they will have the satisfaction if I said that. But I usually ended up said: Err, did you actually drove fast? I don't feel the speed. Or I might said: What the hell? Why the hell you break? What the hell wrong with you? Get the hell out from the seat, let me drive!

A mature guy drives. Make sure you put on seat belt and sit quietly there. And the worst part is, they drive like a tortoise. Seriously. Like: No speeding. Follow the rules. Damn polite. Oh my Goddd. What the hell wrong with this man?! It's green light, move move move!!

A childish boy, for this, if your bf is a childish boy. Look. How they keep you as their barbie dolls. Hey, barbie doll. What did you do today? Who did you hang out with today? What you guys did? What did you buy? What did you eat? What you wearing today? etc etc. Lots of questions until they don't remember what they ask before. Seriously, I don't mind telling you all these stuffs. But don't you think you're much more scary than my parents now?

A mature man, your boyfriend. He will not throw all those questions to you and make you answer it. He knows you well. Knows what you usually do when you hang out with friends. He will only ask when he knew something is wrong. Wow, mind reader!!

A childish boy, ever seen a kid keep talking beside you. Making all those sound effects and make noises. Fiuuuu~ Broom~ Woooo~ Piang piang piang~ Aiyak! Yes, this is it! A childish boy, love to gossip and tell you something bad about the guy live next door, tell you the dog shits in front of his house yard, the granny who wash the toilet in mall. Dude, don't you feel tired of gossiping others? Seriously? Why the hell you telling me all those shits about others? To show me that you're good? Sorry, you make me think opposite now.

A mature man, tell you what's good what's bad. And those annoying bored but meaningful quotes so you can apply in your life. Girl, learn this, learn that. You shouldn't do this, it's gonna spoil your reputation or whatsoever !

A childish boy, pretend like a mature man saying: hey babe, marry me. You don't have to work to earn money. You just have to stay at home, cook, wash clothes and clean the house. Hello, why don't you just hire a maid to do all  that? If you think you really so capable and able to feed me, go ahead and say that. But seriously, look at the economy now. Are you sure you can do it? You don't even afford to get yourself a house yet.

A mature man, said the same thing. But prove that he is capable. *Hello, need to explain here. Not saying female only choose males who have houses and cars*. Just to tell you that, don't make those promises and give them hopes if you know you're not capable. This is what I meant. If you can't, just say it. We don't mind work and cook together. More sweet :)

A childish boy, when they fight in the public. They will ask you to go first or they will protect you when they fight. Seem so protective right? Feel sweet right? *OMG, he is so cool ! He can fight !!! Kung fu~ haiyak!! And he even protects me when he fighting and this causes the enemy hit him on his face*

A mature man will never fight in front of you and they gonna settle the problem by using their brain instead of fight to prove them you're stronger. Dude, seriously, we are human. Are you acting like an animal? Fight to get foods? *Again, I need to repeat this, if you feel angry of what I wrote, I apologize sincerely. But tell me, why are you angry? It's because you seem like one of them????*

A childish boy, laugh and scream in the public to attract attention! Do you have friends like this?! Omg, seriously I tell you what!! I feel damn shame when I'm standing beside. What the heaven wrong with this boy? Are you a monkey?

A mature man, you won't see his emotions. [Bored, am I talking to a wall?] You never catch him. [Is he actually laughing on my jokes?] They don't show much in the public. They respect you.

A childish boy loves to ask you bunch of questions and wish to get to know you. And when you reply him: dude, it's already showed. Why are you still asking me?! And he will answer you: I want you to tell me and the sentence will end up with love love love love love. 

A mature man won't ask you. He will try to observe you. [Yiewww~ sounds like a creepy man!]

A childish boy will ask you what to do when they facing a problem. God damn it babe, I shit on my pant! What should I do now? *Go wash your ass now idiot!* 

A mature man will solve his problem and wipe his ass by himself without letting you know and make you worried. 

A childish boy will buy those expensive and useless thingy. Or they prefer something nice in physically. err, expensive and useless thingy. Basically what I meant was, what they paying for the product is actually higher than the value and the benefits they get from the product. I'll give you an example: A product which has the same function with other brands. Dude, seriously same function same things. But the childish boy actually pay RM2k for that and we can actually get it in RM200. Big different right? So, conclusion. The childish boy: Cool ma, let people see what brand I use. Yeng bo?! [ Sei mei? Haven't start to earn money and spend money like a mad cow ] 

A mature boy, don't even know what the brand is. Only go for something he likes without caring so much. Like those elderly said: You don't have to buy something luxury to impress others, impress others with what you have inside you. Or another one, don't show off what you have, you are good as long as your wallet is fat enough. 

A childish boy, force you to listen the songs he likes. "Eh, this song nice. Bababadadadalolololdududu, you got no idea what the hell the song is actually creeping. Hello, your cd got problem??" And you gotta listen to the song for the whole journey in the car. 

A mature man, concern what you like and sometime listen to what he likes. He is happy when he sees you smile. He gives you opportunity to turn to another channel. Try to know what you like. 

A childish boy, playing with you, hold your hand, keep look at you when he is driving. Dafuq? I don't have insurance and I think he is probably selling it.

A mature man, pay attention in driving. In short, bored to sit beside lol ! [Oi, talk to me laaa~]

A childish boy requires you to make up and dress up pretty when hang out with him. So he can show off to others how pretty the girl he is dating with. *Wuhooo, this pretty girl is mine!!*

A mature man stops you from make up so much and dress like normal when hang out with him. Natural is good enough. What you have internally is eternal. [ I swear I will dump the guy who ask me to make up when hang out with him! lol ]

So, boys and mens. Which one are you falling now? 

Lastly, I'm gonna repeat this again and again. Im writing this not to point at you. Don't perasan ok!? 

That's it! Bye♥♥♥

When we were kids

When you claiming you're getting older, think twice. What about your parents?

When we were kids, we used to beg our parents to let us have pet. But kids usually 3 minutes hot (change mind really fast). And end up, your parents are the one who take care of your pet. And you ignore your pet like you don't give a shit. You even feel it's so annoying.

And now, we grown up. If we have our pets on our own. You realize there are lots of work to do for a pet. You need to buy foods for them, feed them, bath them, play with them and talk to them. It's not a easy tasks. Imagine you have brought trouble for your parents when you want a pet before. They have you, and because of you, they have another pet to take care of.

When we were kids, parents don't let us to eat too much of snacks. They told us is bad for health. This and that. But we won't bother to care so much because it doesn't harm us.

And now, we grown up. We know eating too much of snacks is bad for health. And we are the one who need to stop them from eating something which is bad for their health. But this is different, they are getting older. They will easily fall sick if they ate the wrong things.

When we were kids, our parents always seem to be like heroes. They know everything, they taught us lots of things, they told us what to do and what not to. We learned a lot from them.

But now, we grow up. We are the one who taught them how to do this, how to do that. They seem weak and clueless for the technology nowadays. And sometime, we don't bother to spend time to teach them. We don't even teach them patiently and call them stupid. You wouldn't know how sad they are when you said that.

When we were kids, we feel that our parents look handsome and pretty.

But when we grown up, we saw them changing. Their hair turn white, hearing ability decrease, they can't see things well. But yet, we still laughing at them. We talk to them without patient when they can't hear properly and start screaming at them.

When we were kids, we used to play with them. Jogging, swimming, exercise and race with them. And we are the loser always.

But when we grown up, we realize they don't have the ability to race with you anymore. They turned tired really fast and you have pretend like you're loser and let them win.

When we were kids, we shits and pees like we don't give a shit. And yet, parents teach us patiently and change pants for us.

And when we grown up, and parents getting older. They might shits and pees everywhere. Be patient to them, don't feel shame and scold them in the public for making you shame. You wouldn't know how guilty they feel when that happens.

When we were kids, our parents scold us when we did wrong. But we used to scold back when we think we are right. You don't know how much you've hurt them.

And when you grow up, what you think you're right before is actually wrong. Totally wrong.

When we were kids, changing bulb, fix the sink, repair washing machine those kind of tasks are always parents' job. You don't know anything.

You grow up, you realize they don't have the ability to do that. And you should be the one to do it. Stop pretending like it's not your job. You're not a kid anymore.

When we were kids, we always wish to get the hell out of the house to stay away from them for being so annoying.

You grow up, you moved out, you're free from your annoying parents. But there will be one night, you cry because you miss how they used to be so annoying. Because they care.

When we were kids, everything seem so new for us. You want to try everything and how parents stop you and you fight with them.

And now, you grow up. You know smoke, taking drugs, alcohol, speeding are all stupid things you ever done. You fight with them because you think you should try all of it.

When we were kids, you call them stupid when they worried about you.

Now you grown up, you call yourself stupid because you made them worried. You wouldn't know how restless and anxious they could be when they know something happen to you.

Seriously, some parents are nightmare for some kids. But yet, they are the one who bring you to this world. Without them, I don't know where you could be now. Still a sperm?

Sometime we call it explain when they think is fight back. But, they always have their own reason. Be quiet and listen to what they say. You don't have to explain so much.

Please, be nice to them when you can still do it now. Because time never wait, we are growing up and they are getting older. We won't know what's gonna happen next.

Appreciate the time you with them ♥